Is there a name to what i feel?

[KERRY_JTR]

I am a 20 yr old guy. 3 weeks ago i had my first snorts of cocaine, i had alot for my first time (1 line on fri night, 6 lines on sat, 1 on sunday) plusi had  constant supply of beer around 18 throught the weekend, i didnt eat anything til monday. Then the next weekend came, whcih was 2 weeks from now i had another 80$ worth of coke throughout the weekend and alot more beer, and im not sure if it was laced or what but it felt the same as last week. I havent ate then until sunday rolled around. Sleep wise, i havent been getting my usual.
Before i had cocaine though iwas a very confident, healthy guy and i was ion control of everything. But just recently i feel like i have extreme depression, anxiety or schitzophrenia, because i get so moody(feel amazing then suddenly think wrong and feel like ****). I am compltely different, i feel irritated around my family, i dont smile as much, i dont have the energy or motivation to workout ( i worked out 4x/week) and i dont even eat right, and i am a health freak. The first time i looked at food for comfort was last week and i still have that feeling. I didnt even do anything this weekend and i feel like it wil be this way forever cause i got no motiove or confidence to do anything anymore.  
I do have a mild form of OCD. I dnt have any family health issues. I cry sometimes from sadness and fear of losing a loved one and not giving life all i got like i used to, i dont want to be alone.  i believe in god, but i feel detached from eeverything and the more i talk about it the worse i feel. i got a lot of stress on me at the moment, but i felt i could do it all perfectly fine. I am even paranoid of what people think of me, i think they know what i think. My thoughts were never this extreme but now they are instant.
I dont know if it's from low testosterone levels plus the beer and cocaine...
Someone tell me sometjhing. Thank you!

[FunnyMommy]

You said that you thought the coke was laced with something and that you have become less of a sleeper and have more of an additude. Let me tell you what I think, you could be right about the coke being laced it was probably meth. Most meth users have the exact sysptoms as you. I should know, I am a recovering addict. I have 5 years of being sober. The best thing for you to do is to tell a loved one that you need help and try to go get help from a rehab. The first step is admitting you are an addict. Since you have used more then once, you have a high risk of being one. You said that you believe in the Lord. You should never fell paranoid of what people think or feel the way you do. That is satan trying to confuse you and hurt you. You should remember that God loves you and will never leave your side even if, you hit rock bottom. I'm praying for you. Get help before it's too late.

[BrooklynnStarr]

Kerry, Cocaine doesn't stay in your blood stream that long, but what is scary is that you went BALLS TO THE WALLS with it and BEER the same day. Your brain produces something called Serotonin, and when you use speed, ecstasy, and even alcohol your brain uses more then normal of the serotonin. That is what makes you happy, and I can bet when you did this you felt on top of the world and never wanted it to end. You are lucky you didn't go into psychosis with the amount that you did with alcohol. What made you do that to begin with? You need to figure that out, because if you did it for a numbing effect, or a carefree feeling then you probably already had depression and anxiety issues. You should never be humiliated because you cry. Holding it in is worse for you because you are preventing your body from using its coping mechanisms. If I were you, I would stop and really think HARD about what is upsetting you, agitating you, and especially why you chose to jump on the cocaine train. If it is who you hang out with.... STOP! MISERY LOVES COMPANY!!! Don't let someone else drag you down with them.

[KERRY_JTR]

Thanks for responding to that, i am trying to so hard to stay on track right now i feel i developed some form of anxiety. I only did it 2 weekends though, although it could have been more than i should have had. How long do you reckon it takes to get coke compeltely out of the system? Rightnow i just finsihed crying and i rarely cry. I find it humiliating and really i just started talkig about my life on here. This is the only place i can come just beacusei dont want to strike this convo up with anyone i know. tthank you so much for taking the time

[Marte313]

Even though coke leave your blood fast, it mess up your system for a long time. I have ealier been a coke-addict. When I was using my muscles lost their strength so I could be exhausted after just walking a couple hundred meters. I were often depressed. Coke mess up your serotonin which make you feel depressed. It has been two years since I quit my cokehabit, but you can still see unregularities in my brain on MR. Just stop it right away!!! Coke makes you an addict in no time, it is the easiest drug to get addicted to and the hardest to stop and never do again. It seems like a mild drug, but it really isn't...