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Wow!  What a surprise to find two entries I thought would be seen by various friends here and in other forum easily found when I googled my screen name.

It would be simple for most anyone who knows me to find these posts.

Any way to protect?  Change screen name?  Stop posting?  Or letting personal feelings out here?  

[MrGreen]

Use an unobvious name when you join all forums. Take my name for example. You would know it was me on a search engine. But nobody else would. Because I use another name for chatrooms and another name for other things. The more common the name the better. Like Lady Black. Something that is nothing like your real name. The whole idea is getting hits for the site. Every post we make kind of makes it out there and moves MH up a notch as far as easy to find on search engines go. They are not the only ones who do this. It is a common done thing amongst sites. Forums in particular. Just google the name Cuchculan. The only hits you will get are all to do with me and other sites. Have fun seeing what else i get up to online.

[29sillygirl]

Thanks. Was hoping you would respond.  I feel really stupid.  Should read the small print as they say.

My username is not too good, especially combined with posts I found. Can I change it here?  

Will google Cuchculan. Looked for mrgreen after I freaked out about my stuff. May need to use caps. I am not now in chat rooms, only because my iBook is antiquated and I haven't figured it all out.  

[29sillygirl]

Now I really feel used.  There is a descriptor written by editors here on two posts of mine they apparently chose to advertise MH.
Didn't find your screen name.
Do see what Cuchculan is up to...not really of course.  Google cautioned me on one link...
You are way more sophisticated than I.
No harm done. At least I found out what they do to lure users to this site.  It is all about the numbers.  Or mostly.  I have found support and advice that is useful here, so all is well.  

[MrGreen]

The whole idea is that when strangers type in anxiety help, that MH might be the first name that comes up. Every post made by anybody creates a tag that can be found in a search for whatever that post is about. Be it anxiety or arographobia. Everywhere does it. It is how they are found and get new users. The more posts the higher up the tree they will be. If you know what I mean. But it is normal on the internet. The first ever chatroom I used I went under the name of Homer J Simpson. Now such a name would have thousands of hits because of the cartoon character. The chatroom name would not get as many hits. Hence I say use a popular name. Someone famous or the name of a product even. That way if searched you would get thousands of hits for that product or that famous person and nobody would know you were using the name here on this forum. It is just called playing it safe.

[29sillygirl]

Perfect.  I definitely need a new name.  Homer J. Simpson was brilliant.  

Now to figure out how to get MH to help me change name.  Or maybe I can do without their assistance.

[Steve_MHModerator]

Please use the Contact Us link and briefly explain why you would like your name changed. Thanks!

[RoseTree]

Hi my friend. As always, you know how to give wise advice. I treasure our friendship, but most of all, I treasure all the wise advice you have always given to me in so many ways that has always be of help to me. Thank you.

[MrGreen]

Good to see you looking over here RoseTree. Here is where you will mainly find me and learn so much about me. Things you never knew before. Just follow my posts and there is my life story as boring as it is in bits a blobs. Great to see you my friend.

[29sillygirl]

Hey!
MH just changed my screen name.  No more airannie.  Morphed into 29sillygirl.  

Suggestions for names of movie stars or cartoon characters were not taken:).

Today's drama, which I handled better than I knew I could: drove my very sick cat  to vet (way out of my 2-3 mile comfort zone) during rush hour traffic, with no anxiety whatever.

Learned: making a decision and taking action as soon as possible reduces anxiety; crying over putting a pet to sleep is better than a panic attack, and a natural response.

In my concern for kit, lost all anxiety over what others might think.

Yesterday, I reacquainted myself with dermatologist.  She used to be my go-to girl for all beautification issues.  Last two visits were not satisfactory, but I decided to try again. Our relationship is back to normal.  

Building my support network: the new challenge!

[MrGreen]

Welcome back to the forum. Missed you. Good to see you are doing great things. You can be well proud of yourself. Any pet is part of the family. Always sad if they have to be put to sleep and the likes. That's normal. But you have done good in all that you have done. You should spoil yourself with a nice big reward for your efforts. Buy yourself something nice or tuck into something you love eating but haven't had in a long time. By way of saying well done to yourself. We are allowed reward ourselves for our effots. You deserve a nice big reward by this stage. Good to have you back.

[29sillygirl]

Thanks.  Your 'atta girl' is always welcome.  So nice to have someone to share my victories with.  

A reward.  Yes.  I will think about that one.  

With me just now, it seems I definitely have forward momentum.  Still, it feels like hard work.

Today, I should have called to make appt. with psychiatrist.  Didn't.
Driving to his office will be another first. My sis and her husband  have taken me for the past 2 yrs.  I need to see him.  Procrastinating will make me anxious.  So, tomorrow, will call and go out to chat and get script before I run out of Klonopin.

Making the commitment and following through still a struggle.  

Did get out today, even tho' car making odd noise.  This sort of thing used to put me into tailspin imagining the worst.

I often wonder about the imaginations of those of us with agoraphobia and social anxieties.  The negatives are real, uncomfortable, and embarrassing.  The positives are that we seem to be super sensitive, super creative, and super nice.  My arrogant opinion:)

[MrGreen]

I find people with our condition are mainly artistic and very talented. I would love them to start up a poetry forum or a writing forum and I bet you would see thousands of classic poems and short stories. I think the people tend to how they are feeling into words. Mainly in poetry form.

On another note. Check out RoseTree's profile. I think she has some of her artwork uploaded. The girl in an amazing artist. Hasn't got the same problems we do. She is just a close personal friend of mine who I asked to come over and join the place. She can make a living from her artwork.

If we don't try these sort of things out we never know what we would be good at. i love wood burning. Burning images onto wood. Smokey hobby. But it keeps me nice and relaxed. I think we have so much time that we all have our secret hobbies.

[RoseTree]

I tried to post this earlier. But even though I had it set to remember my password, it wanted me to sign in when I went to post comment. When I got my pass reset, and entered it, my message was gone, LOL. So here goes again, and hope it does not post twice.

Why thank you my friend. But my life has had and does have its share of strifes. You have been more help to me than you realize my friend. And I really do not know what I would have done without you in life.


AN ANGEL LIKE YOU


I do not know what I would do, without you as my friend,
My life would be in torment, living in darkness my trend.
You just do not realize the impact, that your friendship has made,
The hopes and dreams you gave me, because of you they never fade.
                
I do not know what I would do, not having you in my life,
When I'm down I think of you, easing the turbulence caused by strife.
When life is dark and threatening, I can find a calmness in the air,
Just thinking of you my friend, knowing that you are always there.
            
I do not know what I would do, if in my life you did not exist,
The stones you've removed in my way, would be heavy boulders and persist.
There would never be sunlight rays, between the dark clouds interlude,
That shines sparks of hopefulness, through the threatening storms that intrude.

I do not know what I would do, if we had never met,
I'd still be at a standstill, in this life before me set.
All those kind and thoughtful words, you took the time to say,
Adds more sunshine to my life, removing stones from in my way.

I do not know what I would do, had we never met at all,
I could not see to find my way, on those stones I would fall.
I do not know what I would do, I cannot scrutinize or guess,
I cannot see me without you, as a friend you are the best.

I do not know what I would do, I cannot analyze,
You are much more to me, my angel in disguise.
How could I ever repay, all the loving kindness you've given,
To this weary soul of mine, that was ready to give up living.

Just to think of you, and knowing that you're always there,
Makes my life more tolerable, and heartaches easier to bare.
I do not know if it is possible, all your kindness to repay,
But life is too short and uncertain, to let an angel like you slip away.
                  

Reg. ©Copyright
All Rights Reserved
by  XXXXXXXXXXXX/RoseTree

I Xed out my real name, but I really do not mind. Just was not sure if my real name was allowed.


                

[MrGreen]

Beautiful poem. Shows your true talent. Loved reading it. And you are a great friend to have. One of the longest friends I have had online. Others they come and go. But you have been around. Always there. And that's a nice thing.

You can use your real name if you ever want to. That depends on the user. Some like to hold back on their real names for their own personal reasons. Be it someone they know, who know nothing about their problems, googling their name and finding this forum and reading up on all their posts. Hence the made up names.