I am a 46 year old woman who is a non diagnosed bulimic. I do not purge by vomiting but by laxative abuse, and take anywhere from 75-100 biscodyl tablets daily, and have done so since the 1970's, starting at age 11. I was normal weight (gymnast when young) but gradually my weight has increased, even though I purge every day. I used to binge eat, and still do occasionally, but I think I've messed up my metabolism after all these years, as I will fast for fairly long periods of time, and still not budge on the scale. More importantly, I know this laxative abuse is extreme and detrimental to my health, but do not know how to stop. I dread feeling full and bloated, and if I do not take laxatives every day, I am miserable. What can I do to try and stop?
ps....I also was a victim of sexual abuse (twice longterm, once 1x only) and I do understand this may have something to do with my laxative abuse/eating disorder. My doctor knows I complain of nausea all the time )from laxative abuse, I think) but I cannot bring myself to talk to talk to him, or anyone else.