Hi Amnvin,
Congratulations on making the decision for recovery, and trying to utilize coping skills in times of trouble. This is a huge accomplishment. From what you are describing, it might be wise to enter into a higher level of care. It During the process of recovery it is important for you to have a support system that can help guide you through meal times and after. You can go to our website at www.thebellavita.com for more information and to take a free eating disorder survey. You can also call us on our intake line at 818.585.1775 to speak to an intake coordinator about any questions you may have.
I can totally relate. I am a recovering Bulimic and for the last year I have been binge eating. It stresses me out because I dont want to do it but I feel like I have no control. I dont know why I do it. Difference is I crave salt. I am not sure if its because I am deficient in something or because of hormonal reasons but whatever it is its contolling my life.
The only thing for me to do is get help now for the binge eating.
You should do the same.
good luck