Hi, I am a 23 year old RN. No I don't have a psych illness and I'm only trying to diagnose myself because I'm so desperate. I have a low-income insurance that allows me to see a horrible primary doctor only once monthly and require referrals to see specialists, but she cannot seem to find the time to fax the referrals. I was recently hospitalized for a bowel obstruction at 23 y/o. i have had this problem for years, a GI history like no other, with no diagnosis. Also, on/off urinary incontinence and rectal bleeding when i used to be able to run, n/v, chronic periorbital headaches, chronic joint pain, neck/back pain, severe, paresthesias in my extremities, sweaty red palms, swollen lymph nodes in armpits and groin, recently diagnosised with MRSA again, under my skin-no lesion found-they said they thought it was in a gland...oh, im bedbound now. complete exhaustion. my mother and best friend think i am crazy as they have not seen me, i moved 6 months ago when this all started-i got a case of tonsilitis-my first case-that would not go away and just never recooperated. im a rrecovery anorexix/bulimic, previously all my problems were blamed on that and everyone promised i would feel better if i gained weight, but i knew i would feel worse, and i do. horrible sweating, night sweats, hot flashes. i can no longer leave the house and my phone died. i went the the ER yesterday and begged for help but the doctor said to wait to see my primary. I have a positive ANA-autoimmune test. H/O lupus in family... grandmother died at 50 from pneumonia?! I was thinking Multiple sclerosis with myleopathy in the cervical area, as i have an inverted c-spine. but i find it odd that my friend from my eating disorder treatment, with my same story, just died from lymphoma. i dont know what to do. if someone can give me a diagnosis, at least i can tell my family/friend so they beleive im not psychotic. I am just an RN they say, the doctors know best...of i have had a clonus since i was bulimic-they told me it would go away. but it hasnt. currently i give myself enemas every 3 days, i urinate once daily, i sweat constantly or am freezing, tremors, twithing, my right leg fell asleep for a long time for no reason, severe neck paion speading down my arms and shoulder blades-i sleep on the floor if at all, severe low back pain severee knee pain-my joints feel frozen-icy hot all over my body is the only thing that works anymore...I swear I HAVE TRIED EVERYTHING, please can someone help? I will do my best to help you in return, as I do know a lot about medicine, i love medicine, was a hospice nurse, and dream of going to NP school