Can anyone give me any ideas of how to relieve my pain so I can live a halfway normal life without being miserable everyday. My first surgery was in June 2008 and they trimmed my discs. After surgery I was still in pain so in February 2009 they did a fusion on L5 and S1. That night in the hospita I was in excrutiating pain, I cried all night I just couldn't get the pain to ease and the pain was unbearable. I can't expalin how horrible the pain was. The next morning I went home with pain meds that did not ease my pain. At home I couldn't get into bed myself, my fiance had to pick me up gently and lay me in the bed. I couldn't lay on my right side at all. This extreme pain lasted for over 6 months. My doctor took x-rays and an MRI and he said everything looked fine, I told him about the pain I was in and he did noting except to say it could take up to a year for me to heal. My family doctor tried to handle my pain with meds but they were not helping so I asked to be sent to another neurosurgeon. She referred me to a neurologist and he did a nerve conduction test on me and it showed I had a pinched nerve at L5 S1. He gave me neurotin and it didn't help. This doctor moved to California so it took a while to get my records. When we got the records I asked my family doctor to refer me to the doctor that gave my injections so I could try them again and that doctor gave me another nerve test and he aslo said I had a pinched nerve at L5 S1. After the injections failed I gave up. Again I got tired of my pain so I asked my doctor to refer me to another neurosurgeon. I'm not a quiter. That neurosurgeon gave me a test with dye and then a CT scan. The results were the fusion did not heal, he said the screws were in the wrong place and a screw was loose, it looked to me like it was hanging but I'm not a professional. At my second visit he said he would not operate on me and he can't tell me what the cause of my pain was. I was extremely confused. I just don't understand how the nerve test with needles show I have a pinched nerve at L5 S1 but the neurosurgeon said he can't tell me where my pain was coming from. I just need some ideas. If anyone has any ideas of what I can do next or what meds may work please let me know. I'm a single mom and I have to do everything myself, if I can get some ideas of how to relieve my pain or even end my pain it would be greatly appreciated. I am miserable and I am making my children miserable because I am always in horrible pain I'm ill at them all the time I can't even stand to hear people talk I don't even go out to eat every month with my friends anymore. It has ruined my life. I have not joined a forum before because I know people have it worse than me and I don't want to whine but I do want to live a better life. I'm just tired of being miserable and I can't seem to find a doctor that will help.