Just need to talk

[Nicenurse]

Hi to everyone,

Just wanted to let of steam.  I recently found a small lump in my breast and was fast tracked to breast clinic.  As you can all guess i had a mammogram actually 2 and an ultra sound. The lump has turned out to be a cyst which is a great relief however, the mammogram has shown a microcalfication.  I had a sterotatic biopsy on friday to diagnois the mircrocalcification.  However, i am under the impression that the biopsy may have been unsccessful as the calcification was so small.  I get my results in a few days and i am going out of my mind.  You wouldn't believe that i am nurse i feel like i have lost the plot..........Any advice  

[braveheart2]

The waiting is the hardest part! I was a wreck waiting for my results, going through the motions of my days but churning with nervous anxiety inside. I agree with Chris, being a healthcare professional seems to amplify the anxiety, perhaps because we know all too well what can go wrong, and our imaginations run away with us -- suddenly, we see ourselves as possibly becoming patients instead of clinicians! Too scary. After all, we are supposed to be the strong ones, the reliable ones, the last ones standing to be around to care for everyone else ... and the prospect of possibly not being well enough to help others is truly frightening.

I hope they got your microcalcification at biopsy so you will have some deifinitve results. Did they X-ray the SCN biopsied tissue at the time of the procedure to be sure they "got" the suspicious area? Do hang in there, and keep the faith. It is very hard, but you are not alone. Chris is a wonderful role model, brave and strong, and we are all sending you positive vibes for a benign result.

Let us know how it turns out!

[healingwell62]

Hi!

Isn't it the hardest thing being a healthcare worker with a health issue?  It's easy to come up with every worst case scenario that could possibly occur.  I know if I get a headache I think it's a brain tumor, right?  The worst thing is waiting for results.  I would suggest calling each day to see if the results came in early.  Hopefully everything will come out fine and you can move on -- the lump turned out ok!  I am also a healthcare worker and when I was diagnosed, I thought there is no way I can do this.  I've watched so many people go through this so bravely, there's no way I could possibly be as courageous as the other women I've seen.  Now that I'm 10 months into it, I'm amazed that I've pulled the courage out of my toes.  And just when I think I don't have an ounce more of courage, I either cry of sleep and I have more and I'm ready to go again until I'm done.  Well, I've probably told you more than you wanted to hear!  I'll be pulling for you and either way it turns out, we're here, ok?

Warmly,

Chris
Healingwell62
Breast Cancer Community Leader