PLEASE HELP IF YOU CAN,I HAVE ALWAYS HAD ANXIETY AND SOME PANIC ATTACKS,ALSO HAVE SOME PHOBIAS,I HAVE TAKEN VALIUM OFF & ON FOR 20 YEARS NOW AND THAT ALWAYS SEEMED TO HELP ME THROUGH,ABOUT 5 YEARS AGO MY WIFE & I BOTH STARTED TAKING PAIN PILLS, NOT FOR PAIN BUT TO COPE WITH SOME LIFE CHANGES AND DIFFICULT TIMES WE WERE GOING THROUGH,ANYWAY THE MEDS WE WERE TAKING WERE VICODIN AND ULTRAM,AND I WOULD SAY AT LEAST 3 OF THOSE YEARS I WAS TAKING IT ON A DAILY BASIS,NOT LARGE AMOUNTS MAYBE 2 OR 3 PILLS A DAY MOSTLY THE ULTRAM 50MG TABLETS.I FINALLY STOPPED ABOUT 7 MONTHS AGO AND FOR ABOUT 3 MONTHS I WAS FEELING OK THEN HERE ABOUT 2 OR 3 MONTHS AGO I STARTED NOT FEELING RIGHT,I HAD A LITTLE RASH ON MY UPPER THIGH BY MY GROIN AREA IT STARTED OUT AS A LITTLE RED RAISED AREA ABOUT THE SIZE OF A DIME AND THEN THERE WERE LITTLE RED ITCHY SPOTS AROUND THAT AREA,IT WOULD COME AND GO AND I THINK IT WAS APPEARING AS I WOULD START TO NOT FEEL GOOD LIKE I WOULD FEEL A LITTLE WAVE OF NAUSEA AND ALMOST LIKE A PANIC AND A WIERD DEPRESSED FEELING,I DON'T KNOW IF THAT WOULD RELATE TO WHAT I HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH BUT I THOUGHT I WOULD MENTION IT. ANYWAY WHAT I HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH LATELY IS PURE HELL,I FEEL OK FOR A WHILE THEN FOR NO APPARENT REASON I GET THIS WAVE OF NOT FEELING RIGHT,ITS HARD TO DESCRIBE BUT I GET KINDA LITEHEADED,AND A LITTLE NAUSEA AND JUST FEEL WIERD LIKE I GET REALLY DOWN AND I THINK SOMETHING MUST BE TERRIBLY WRONG WITH ME, IT WILL LAST FOR A WHILE THEN IT WILL SUBSIDE,AND HERE IN THE LAST TWO WEEKS MY RIGHT LEG AND RIGHT ARM KINDA START FEELING LIKE THERE GOING TO SLEEP, AND KINDA WEAK FEELING THEN IT GOES AWAY AND IT SEEMS THAT IT DOES IT AT THE TIMES I'M FEELING THAT FUNNY FEELING.I HAD A PHYSICAL AND BLOOD WORK DONE,THAT ALL SHOWED NOTHING, I HAVE BEEN UNDER ALOT OFF STRESS, MY WIFE AND I ARE NOT GETTING ALONG ETC.MY DOCTOR SAID ITS DEPPRESION AND STRESS AND GAVE ME ANTI DEPPRESANT TO TRY, I HAVE NOT STARTED THEM BECAUSE HERE LATELY I HAVE BEEN TAKING THE ULTRAM AGAIN, LIKE 2 A DAY,AND THAT ISN'T DOING MUCH FOR ME ANYMORE,I JUST FEEL SO SCARED AND CONFUSED WHY ALL THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME.CAN DEPPRESION AND STRESS REALLY CAUSE ME TO FEEL ALL OF THESE SYMPTOMS I'M HAVING OR COULD IT BE FROM ALL THE SUBSTANCE ABUSE,PLEASE ANY ADVICE WOULD BE APPRECIATED,AS I AM TYPING THIS MESSAGE I AM FEELING LOUSY,REAL SPACEY, KINDA DIZZY,JUST NOT MYSELF AT ALL.IS THERE ANY TESTS THAT YOU MIGHT KNOW OF THAT I SHOULD BE TESTED FOR,OR DOES THIS SOUND LIKE A BAD CASE OF DEPPRESION?.WHY DO I FEEL GOOD AT TIMES THEN OUT OF THE BLUE THAT MISERABLE FEELING OVERTAKES ME,I AM AT MY WITS END WITH THIS, ALL I WAN'T IS TO FEEL GOOD AGAIN,ALSO I SHOULD MENTION THAT I AM 45 YEARS OLD I WIEGH 130LBS,BUT I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN A THIN PERSON, ALSO MY APPETITE ISN'T SO GOOD,ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M HAVING MY EPISODES, IS IT POSSIBLE I MESSED SOMETHING UP IN MY BRAIN FROM THE VALIUM AND PAIN PILLS? DOES IT SOUND LIKE SOME WIERD DISEAS? PLEASE I AM DESPERATE FOR SOME ANSWERS,THANKS.