I am sorry to hear about your experience with the therapist. I encourage you to find another therapist. The topic you need to talk about is extremely sensitive and you must find someone you can trust and work with again....it is critically important to work on this, so get up your courage and remember that therapy is a personal art form, and you need to find the right person for you...he or she is there.
Oh also, I know the half life of ambien is so short infact 4 hours or even 3.5 right? Maybe not exactly. But I can remember everything. I did dissasociate at the end when they wer edoing the things to me I can;t say. And I only remember small pieces of that.
But also I had been involved with putting someone in jail and went undercover with a wire and he had found out it was me and he is known for getting rvenge and having :people" watch his victims.
Hi Amph
I'm sorry this has happened to you.
It was obviously a good time to ask your question.
Even if your T did think those things, perhaps it would have been more appropriate if she had of kept them to herself.
You sound like me when I've become angry with the mhs -no, I don't want to see you, no, I don't want help, etc, etc.
Cutting off our nose to spite our face doesn't help our situation (even if it does feel empowering for a short while).
Sometimes when you stop a medication and then start again you can get different side-effects (from the ones you experienced previously).
It's understandable that you'd feel hurt and betrayed.
You will talk about it again, but when you feel ready.
It sounds like there needs to be a lot of work done on repairing the relationship. That is, if you choose to continue working with her.
I expect you feel hurt and angry and a lot of other emotions but sometimes people don't communicate well and sometimes stuff is taken out of context. Perhaps your T didn't know how to react to you because of your history??
My T was strong on boundaries but that didn't stop her from giving an additional five minutes if that was going to be benefit therapy. Maybe she was uncomfortable with the question or the feelings that evoked in her?
Haven't you trusted again by asking and sharing?
Sometimes you need space and sometimes you just need to return and sort it out.
Besides the things you mentioned, were you working OK together before her comments?
What do you feel is the right decision for you?
Ambien is the same as zolpiderm or zopiclone, isn't it? (?Spelling)
My GP gave me zopiclone (and lorazepam) tablets which I've been using. It was probably inevitable given I've crashed and feel in perpetual crisis.
Anyway, there are times I remember things and times when I don't. Unless there is evidence to the contrary we probably don't even consider anything out of the norm has happened.
I'm really sorry you've experienced this. I also really hope you're getting the support (and validation) you need.
Hugs (I hope that's not too personal) and best wishes
J
I hope this makes sense, I've been interrupted lots.
Dr Gould's response actually made sense.
When I had issues with a previous T, trying to find that validation, etc was a waste of time, space and energy.
Trying to force something that didn't feel right to me was wrong.
I was discharged during a time of crisis and while it hurt I was probably better off for it.
This reinforces for me that I shouldn't be accepting therapy from this last T.
Do what you feel is best for you. Best doesn't always have to be right either.
J