My name is Ray, I am 28 years old, and Married. Over the course of my life I have battled with depression, and what I believe to be a learning disability. This christmas My wife was returning to Phoenix, AZ to be with her family, and I was welcomed with warm arms, but I could not bring myself to go. The thought of travaling to the airport being on the plane, to just be away from home for six days, filled me with a kind of paralysis. This has happened before in minor ways like not wanting to go out for social events, or being able to hold a job. The opposing pressures of needing to support myself, and assist my wife, who does work, and not being able to force myself out to find a job seems to grow everyday, and is already monumental to me. Everyday that I don't look, or when I apply and am rejected pushes me further into isolation. I don't know what to do or who to turn to for help. I can't afford therapy, even when we had insurance, and especially now that I am not working. I am really hoping to be able to find some help.