Lack abtitude for therapy (?)

[ArtChee]

I (apparently) have a quasi-personality disorder. I have always had a sense of doubt, inadequacy, lack of confidence; while at the same time feeling a need to accomplish. I have always "tried" to figure out the "correct" course to take toward personal achievement, and to properly provide for my family. However, no matter how well accomplished, I have ALWAYS felt "a day late, and a dollar short."
In my late 20's I figured that I must change my thinking, & began a quest to do so. Self-help programs couldn't do it, so I sought professional help. Over the years I have been in psychotherapy 3 times with over 45 sessions each. They all ended the same way; I was told that I wasn't "really wanting to change," or I was looking for a "magic pill."
This has been VERY irritating! I spend many $ and agonizing effort to understand therapy. I read on the InterNet that patients should START begin to feel better after 6 to 12 sessions. The last therapy went 50 sessions & I was feeling a LOT worse & my motivation to meet my daily responsibilities was worsening, plus my depression was causing MORE problems with my marriage.
I apparently lack a "sense of self," & as a result have very little "presence of mind" while in therapy. I try to be conscientious & I "think" I focus on the sessions, but take very little away with me. It's almost like I don't speak the same language. Then I'm told I'm not doing the work.
What responsibility does the therapist have to sucessfully "communicate" to the patient?
IS there a remedial psychotherapy for those who cannot "grasp" the concept?

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

I am sorry to hear that therapy has not helped you. I don't know of a remedial therapy, but sometimes finding just the right therapist and just the right time of your life is what allows you to turn the corner. I think that is what you should still look for...not just find a therapist, but interview a few until you find one you can work with.

I can offer you a beginning. If you go to my masteringstress program(link above), and start working on any aspect of the problem, and then request a professional review, I will have much more information and may be able to get you started on the right path.

[lana36]

What you have described is me exactly. I was seeing a therapist for about 6 months, and she pretty much told me that therapy was just working for me, and that I needed medication.  I have the same feelings of inadequacy and doubts, while still having the driving force to succeed.  However my success has always been hampered by my constant nagging feelings of self doubt. I would be interested to see what types of therapy and medication work best for this type of disorder. I would hate to think that I am destined to this type of miserable existence.