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is this natural or is this a sign of OCD

hi, i am a male of 29 now and i feel very anxious over what happend 23 years ago when i was 6 year old. i had a playmate of approximately my age or maybe he was 2 years older, we used to play together a lot and i trusted this kid so i dont think there was any abuse and i was not really foreced into anything, however we did experiment a couple of times playing sexual games, but it was just natural curiousity and exploration i mean we were just discovering something. so we just touched each other and lay on top of each other stuff like that nothing serious really. nothing oral or anal or whatsoever. and normally this kind of play is not supposed to have any longlasting traumatic effects on an individual, but for some strange reason i have developped and enormous amount of guilt and anxiety related to this issue, obsessive and intrusive thoughts and fears that i might be gay or that i have done something that will affect my sexual preferences and change them in some way. i have always loved women and always been fascinated by and drawn to the opposite sex, but recently my mind just cannot let go of ruminating about the possibility that i might have done something really really Wrong and Terrible and unnatural and unhealthy and immoral and very bad by playing with this kid. and i am so hopeless now i dont know what to do. i whish i could go back in time and undo this thing i have done, but i am afraid its impossible.
please, what kind of advice could you have for me? how bad is it? should i worry about it? what if i have destroyed my sexuality and now i am bound to become gay like my anxious mind tells me? is there any hope in this situation?
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all of your fears are unfounded...this is natural exploratory child's play and every person you know has probably done at least the same thing..it had nothing to do with being bad, or will it effect your sexual orientation...but...now you have discover what these obsessive thoughts really mean in terms of your anxiety and your life right now...they are displacements from something you don't want to look at, so the best thing to do is look at them with the help of a professional.
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The expert on the compulsive behaviors expert forum would suggest that this was normal behavior (the sexual experimentation, etc).  He would also say that it is only the guilt that is problematic (as it is intense and interfering with your life).  He has also said that the content can be normal for someone with ocd.
I can't give you a specific post title but you could always try scanning some of the more recent posts on that forum.  The themes from certain posts seem similar although the content is slightly different.

I personally don't think this will dictate your sexual orientation or preference.
I think as the anxiety is high you could benefit from therapy.
These memories may have been triggered by some transition you're making, or confronting, in your life right now.

I know this is easier said than done but please don't stress too much about this.
I hope you get the reassurance, etc from the expert that you need.
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