Seeking help

[mogadishu]

Hi,

Age: 27 Male

Symptoms:

Since early childhood into adulthood being unable to connect with anyone and being overwhelmed by other people, this is the main cause of concern as I have not had a friend for most of my life or been in any relationship.

I was also very emotional in Childhood 1 - 9yo, crying very easily etc

Mid teens - present

Void of emotions except for feelings of mild nagging sadness, I also have been told I have no emotional expression.

I also have Ongoing ideas of reference but only when in public and when stressed, I do realise that the thoughts are illogical but the feeling of being watched and misshearing other people thinking they are talking about me, but once I am at home my head clears and I never think about it until I go outside again or if people are loudly speaking outside my window.

I rarely go anywhere anymore other then work and grocery shopping, I would characterise myself as an extreme homebody.

I work in a call centre and have done so for 5 years Althogh I am able to hold down a job I work out of an extreme need for being financially independant.

Recent problems

Extreme boredom, apathy, poor attendance at work and drinking to get drunk every Friday night at home, I will usualy consume approx 6 - 8 beers every friday.

Pysilogical:

I would define my self as having an ETbody shape drooping unmuscular chest, thin arms, and large gut ) I have never been pyscially active, I am 6 ft 6 my medical disorders are strabismus and CAPD


co-ordination is quite poor (not being able to cath a ball or play sports, I have also been told I bounce when I walk and in my early childhood I did not swing my arms when I walked, I now do but am concious of it.

I would define myself as average intelligence although some people say I am above average but that is more due to the way I speak, my grades were good during grades k - 6, however I left school at age 14 due to problems of being bullied and finding myself incompetant at English and Maths.

I have researched my symptoms and think I may have a form of Autism or another non-verbal learning disability, however I would like to know how to be able to connect to other people and have a social life as this boredom is becoming annoying, I am finding myself eating the wrong foods, drinking allot of coffee and smoking 25cigs a day out of boredom. I also feel like I have been trapped at the age of 14 and have not continued to grow.

I have also had problems of emotional and pyshical abuse from my older siblings, ie being beaten up everyday and made fun of constantly for taking things the wrong way and being bullied during highschool.

For you freudians I have had very early sexual experiances, my first was teh age of 5 or 6 with another boy opf the same age involving oral and anal sex, when I was 7 I was used by my 14 year old sister and also engaged in oral and vaginal sex.

I have never had sexual relations with anyone else since then and now am A-sexual

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

mogadishu,

We are having some techincal difficulties with your posting. Dr. Gould has forwarded us the following reply to be posted on his behalf.

"Others have already given you the right answer, he needs to find a therapist to work with, there are no short cuts."

Regards,
Med Help

[stamstc]

My fiance suffers from something severe, but we need to find a highly recommended doctor to get to the bottom of it. Hoping someone can recommend a psychiatrist in the california bay area (san francisco bay area-within 35 miles east of SF ).
Background: His mother, and aunt and uncle are bipolar. His father was manically depressed. Both parents, and the majority of his family are alcoholics due to depression-like disorders.

He is always unhappy. Especially sober. he describes sobriaty as an overwhelming sense of unease and bordom that is intolerable.  It has cause great distress to our relationship.

He was on a trial for Cymbalta and it helped for a while. But he has stopped taking it.

Would appreciate any referrals if known..thanks a million.

[stamstc]

please accept my apology. I thought I was posting a question, and inadverdetnly replied to your posting.(see previous comment) Best wishes to you.

[sunflower21]

You should also think about joining a fitness club even just to walk the track for exercise. It would give you something to do other than stay home and drink in the evenings. You'll meet people and your life will be less boring.

[sparkeler]

There is so much depth, emotion, trauma, and pain in your life's story, you need to make an appointment with a pshychiatrist.  It's kind of like a storm that has never ceased and your sitting in it letting it wash you away.  You need to swim through this.  Please use the interenet to find a health care provider ASAP.  YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS

[LynnSB]

I hope you go to a therapist soon but I would suggest you try yoga.  It is a wonderful way to calm your body and slowly, gently, it will help your coordination, your posture and how you feel about your body. I PROMISE if you do it, you will greatly benefit. If you are too shy to take a class ( which are very relaxing) ,  get a video and/or a book. Just try the breathing a few easy positions but regularly. Good luck and because you recognize you need help, you are NOT crazy and you CAN find help and a real life out there. Best, Lynne