Whats going on with me?!?!?!

[Froglet42]

I have a list of things that are going on and I have explained them to my family and they think it's a joke and just say "ooh your going crazy" which really isnt helping! Can anyone explain what the hell is up wih me? Do i have a disorder or am i just bizaare?
Here is my list
1. I am ALWAYS incredibly depressed and self harm lots and have thoughts of suicide
2. I have what seems to be mild OCD
3. I talk to inanimate objects and imagine I am having real conversations
4. I talk to myself, but not just like "what shall i do now" or whatever, full conversations and i relpy to myself
5. I have begun doing weird stuff in my sleep like cutting off my hair etc
6. I get really bad migranes that go away when i push hard around my eyebrows
7. I have no self confidence and often get shy around everyone, even people I have known for years and dont want them to know I have a problem incase they are dissapointed in me
8. I have really bad paranoia

does anyone know what these things mean and dont say "your insane!!!" it doesnt help.
thanks

[Jaquta]

No, not insane!!

I believe the doctor is correct in directing you towards a therapist.

I experience some of the symptoms you do and I have been diagnosed with a personality disorder and depression and anxiety.
-My mood can vary a little and I can feel extremely depressed and suicidal (and homicidal if I am very unwell).
-I don't self-harm (unless binge eating and certain risk taking behaviors are included).  I have attempted suicide several times.
-I repeat stuff which is beyond frustrating and can cause me to panic.
-I don't talk to inanimate objects but I do talk to my pets.
-I mentally converse with myself and as I engage with very few people I too need to manufacture responses (or not.  Sometimes I just have too many questions to ask let alone answer).
-I get tension headaches which feel they could progress to migraines so I try very hard to relax and breathe.
-My family are always disappointed in me (unless I am a clone which is still not me).  I have issues with self-esteem and have issues with identity.  I always used to feel ashamed for being me.
-I can get paranoid when I am unwell.

What you describe just shows that something else is going on.  Once we address issues the symptoms decrease and even disappear.

J

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

You are under a great deal of internal tension, which is so overwhelming to you that it spills out in the ways that you described. You need to see a therapis and sort out what is going on, figure out what to do about it, and learn that what you are afraid of looking at is really something that you can learn how to master. do this..its the right thing to do.