Hello. It has been 3 months since depression taken over me. I used to be a very bright person, but now, everything change. I can't hardly smile. I somehow don't know how to interact with people anymore. I hate myself. I appear "normal" to my family and some friends. At work, often i felt like i've been left behind. I used to forget all my loneliness and depression through my hobbies and watch tv..but looks like none of those can help me anymore. I often cry by myself and woke up several times at midnight. Since i appear almost very normal, is very hard to talk to someone..or anyone. Now, i always feel unwanted by this world...and the thought of ending my life always there. I know something is really wrong with me and i want to fix it..but i don't know how.