Alone.

[KameikSab]

I am 18 and sufferd from thaughts/attemps of suicide since the age of 13. I wish My parents would try and help me. But I just feel critisized... I feel alone all the time even with a crowd of people (That I avoid most of the time) Withdraw from a lot of things that I used to love doing, (Hanging with friends,doing archery, drawing, and swimming) I have finaly got to the point were I used to feel pain all the time, and now I feel nothing. I have no energy at all. I Love to sleep a lot (Mom gets mad at me for doing that) I just need to know, Is there ANYTHING! That can help me seem like there is a door to all the darkness, and that Suicide isn't that door.
-Kameik

[jemma116]

I know exactly how you feel.  I had feelings like that too when I was your age.  

I felt so tired and slept a lot too.

You are 18 and I don't know if you are able to go and see a doctor without your parent in your country.  If you can, make an appointment and see the doctor and explain to him how you feel.  It may be that you are feeling so low and tired and suffering these very low feelings that you may actually be anaemic.

If you are not eating well or not eating enough, your body will be lacking in the essential vitamins and minerals to keep you healthy.  In anaemia there is lack of iron which results in lack of red corpuscles that carry the oxygen around your body.  With anaemia you will want to sleep.  

By what you have described about losing interest in your favourite subjects and you feel isolated even though there are people around you, does sound very much like depression, but you should go and see your doctor so that he can diagnose you properly and take blood tests to see if there is an underlying physical problem that needs to be treated first.

If you still have to go to school, perhaps you could talk with your school nurse about how you feel.

You have crossed the first step in recognising and accepting that you do have a problem.  The next step is to get medical help from your doctor and referral to a counsellor if your doctor feels you may benefit from this.

Best wishes.

[nursegirl6572]

You need to seek help.  Suicide is not the answer, and of course you don't have to suffer needlessly, there's help out there!

[neverlosehope18]

Hi, im 18 years old as well and know exactly how u feel.. ive been through alot and also thought about suicide. Even my parents found out and talked to me about it. But it didnt seem to work. Best thing to do is relax a little and go out to clear your mind. Try to be with some friends. I try really hard to not think about it. I try to surround myself with people. Its hard I know. But you have alot of years to come and something good will come to your life and you will be happy that u stayed here on this world. Just give yourself some space. Be a teen

[arlandonbloom]

Suicide is NOT the door to walk through. You are 18 years old, and still have such a life ahead of you. Have you been to a psychologist/psychiatrist and have an actual diagnosis of depression? If not, I would suggest going to see one. I know sometimes it's hard to think about but there is so much more ahead of you. Even though you might not feel that way now, but there is always a way around these feelings whether it is medication, therapy, meditation, or forcing yourself to get out and do the things that you want like to do. I would have to agree with your mother for getting mad at you for sleeping or maybe laying around doing nothing all day. I know the feeling of being depressed, you feel like the only way out is to kill yourself, that there is nothing for you but you really need to force yourself to get out and do something that you like. Even if it's just once a week, or trying something new. I got into cheerleading and that took my mind off of a lot of things, it helped me keep my grades up and I made some new friends with it. I suggest finding something or trying something that you like or something new. You are a precious person, whether you think so or not and have so much to offer this world, even if you have not yet found what that is yet. My suggestions to you is to first and foremost, seek help right away to help you with this and to give you an evaluation to diagnose you (if you are indeed depressed) and to find something to take your mind off of these thoughts. Remember that you are precious to this world, no matter what anyone says and you have so much to offer that you need to find out what that something or those somethings are, and the only way to do that is to continue through life, making memories, making mistakes, but most importantly, living.