Help plz

[idkgirl15]

I am 13 years old, and I really neeed help. I had quite a tramatic life at a young age which resulted in many mental problems that surficed as life begin to even out. When I was 7 I was diaognosed with ocd, depression, and anxiety. As of recently around thanksgiving of 2010 i had a very bad break down and have not been able to attend school and had to be homeschooled and barely can leave the house. Nothing really onset it I just broke down. I have been a cutter secretly since the age of 5. And my mood can go from happy to suicidal in the course of hours. My parents are not help because they believe i am just a very hormonial teenager, even though my dad should since he went through the same thing. I can not concentrate because of loud noises in my head i can not understand, the words. And i also feel as if everything is flying by and the world is spinning. When i become very distraught i reside in my head trying to exscpe the world. I can hear a voice tell me to do things as counting my steps jumping up and down x amount of times which resulted in being labled having ocd. I can not even function regurally without a breakdown or going into a mode where i listen to my head. Because i worry when the voice says i will have a consequence if i dont do what it says even though i dont belive it i do. i have constant  headaches and i can not go to sleep at night. Lately i have been contemplating suicide again, and have been very sure it would be best even though i dont have a reason to die other than my constant pain which i can not take anymore, not for my sake but for those around me i effect. I have also been thinking about trying 2 check myself into a mental hospital to get my life back together, or maybe to be forgotten about those around me. Im cluless and im scared cuz i have no idea whats wrong with me all i know is that i can not keep doing what i am doing and if something dosent change i am gonna be dead soon.

[freddie8605]

it also kind of sounds like borderline personality disorder but i am not a doctor and cant diagnosis you. but maybe look it up on Google. why not ask your doctor/psychologist for a diagnosis? and then ask for treatment options.

[remar]

Klonopin is a good med for anxiety. However, it should be taken every day, usually twice a day. It takes about a week for it to build up in your system. If your only taking it once a week it's no wonder your not getting any benefit from it. Your Dad was taking a very high dose and I'm a little surprised he was prescribed this med for migraines. I'm not an expert on migraines so this may be common practice. Anyway, I think considering your age, your Dr might start you off on .25 mgs twice a day. From what I know about this med it's pretty safe to take long term. The symptoms your describing sound like possible bi-polar. Has your Dr ever mentioned that to you? If you are bi-polar then an antidepressant like Zoloft would'nt be a good choice for you. Are you getting any counseling right now? Suicide is not an option. Your so young and have your whole life ahead of you. I really think with the right counseling and possible meds your going to be just fine. We're here to help you any way we can.  Remar

[idkgirl15]

by the way when it got unbearable i was taking zoloft. i have tried pretty much every medicine out there and i do see a therapist, phsycatrist, and phycologist. As of now i am taking luvox, clonopin, and different things for sleeping. None of these help i still cant sleep and feel the same, and the only thing that slightly helps is clonipin. However clonipin wears of quite fast and only can be taken about once a week. Some people take it more than that but its not good and can have long term effects, belive me i would never do that. Cuz clonipin was what my dad was taking for cluster migranes and he became very sick becuz his docter told him to take 3 a day and that wasnt how it was 2 be used and he still isnt the same after almost 15 years.