I'm so empty

Yesterday I told my mum I don't want her in my life anymore, after years of her making me feel like I was **** I rang her and confronted her and asked why she did it she said she gave up on me and sees no hope in me I can't understand how someone could say this to their own child she is a monster and want NOTHING to do with her. My mum would hate confrontation one of my memories was when I pulled her up on her crap she grabbed all my stuff and took it and put it out the front of a homeless shelter and I slept there my father had to ring her and beg and pay her to let me back in her house. How can someone do this I don't know what to do anymore??

[colleen01]

Hi Jazy_90....I feel bad for you after reading your post.  I am 53, just joined a few days ago as I have the opposite problem with some of my children rejecting me, not wanting me in their lives.  I can see how hurt you must feel .  I'm assuming you have tried all avenues of communication with your mum including counseling?  My counselor doesn't advise cutting family out of your life unless severe,severe circumstances.  There is always hope.  Life can change in a moment.  Perhaps, and I'm not taking your mom's side, don't know the history, your mom was angry when she said those things?  Maybe you could write all of your feelings and hurts in a letter to her.  Alot of people can't deal with looking at themselves.  I have made several of my children leave the home for different reasons that I felt were justified.  Looking back, emotions  play a big part in the dramas of family relationships.  Both sides have to admit their part in any conflict, forgive, and move on.  Hand in there honey!   Colleen01

[colleen01]

I meant "hang in there"

[Kayannaboo]

This is what i had to do: Stop expecting. I had to accept my mother for who she is and who she will never be in my life. You are going to feel like a part of u is missing for awhile deep down we all need our PARENTS and usually our mothers but recognize that our parents are people just like you and me and though they are supposed to be our light and shining armor they are not all the time. You need to live ur life for YOU, she has lived her life. Do not make the absence of her or her love control ur life it's all about ur happiness right now dear. This is based on past experiences.