Hi. I have been a clincial depressive since the age of 9 ( I am 51 now). I have had 3 major episodes in my life, the last one, at age 38 ) landed me in the hospital. I have atypical depression, meaning I also have anxiety. Right now, I am on 150 mg of Zoloft and .5 Klonopin, daily, as I was starting to feel a lot like you are describing. I know how scary panic attacks can be! In my case, I found out that my estrogen level was low ( lol I know this would not be the case with you) and they put me on hormones. I am feeling better now and am hoping that my shrink will reduce my meds at my next visit, in July. The reason I say all of this is: first, 50 mg of Zoloft is not a high dose and second, I am not familiar with the other drug you mentioned. My advice would be to seek a caring, compassionate psychiatrist and explain your symptoms. You may benefit from some type of anti-anxiety meds, at least right now. Just be careful as they are addictive and need to be weaned off of. I personally like the Klonopin. I hope this helps.
How long you have to go through withdrawals I don't know (I'll be honest, I know nothing about drug-withdrawals). Maybe you can find answers here, maybe you can check around in the [Addiction: Substance abuse] forum?
If the medications makes you feel stranger, go back and have the meds adjusted. They might be wrong!
Irritation is also coming from emotions, right? You're a human with many kinds and levels of emotions and they're there for a reason. I hope you come so far as to feel and think and be again. Maybe you would be feeling better with a health professional? In the world today it is so many who get medications for this and that mental onset, but counselors seem to be left out. Personally I don't regret for one moment that I accepted to start going to a psychologist. I tried quite a few times through life.
My family and I was always "the perfect target" for psychotherapy since the family looked as it did - a step-parent who was violent, traumatic loss of parent. I went through the teens knowing that whatever I did, the next medical professional would be forcing me to talk about it. I wasn't ready for that. It made me pretty sensitive to mental health professionals - but the thing was: I wasn't ready, and I didn't know that the right person was still waiting for me. Now I go to a great psychologist even if we used about 10 sessions to trust...
There is a time for everything. Try everything you can to get the right help for you. It is there, and you have tons of things to talk about. Medications - even self medications won't define what you feel. Talking and sifting will. What medications do, is to help on the chemical imbalance and with an ADHD diagnose, you might benefit most of a medications AND therapy? That's up to the doctors and you. Remember that the primary care physician is there to help you find the right cure.
Stay in touch!
Florena
also... the zoloft or seroquel (not sure which one ) makes me so irritable. i snap at my girlfriend and family and feel like just screaming into a pillow or punching holes in the walls because im so frustrated im not getting better. i heard that you should wake 1-2 weeks before feeling "normal" again but i dont know if maybe my body is just weird. i feel like when i was off the meds i had a better sense of life.. and now my brain just feels DEAD to emotions... i cant even cry when i want to... please im just so scared....