i think about it now and then, i dont know but i have extreme moments of depression, i cry alot...
and it gets so bad where i cant even see any hope or light in the situation ..its worse at night,thats the hardest times, i dont always feel like this but the thought always cross's my mind, i have a good family..and few friends, i have job , i dont have a bad life...and i dont know why but some times it just gets to much and i cant do it any more..some days are really good..and i used to be very happy...i cant deal witht the extreme pain and depression, then extreme happiness....its too much...
but i dont know what happen to me...i think its cause... i think i need love to complete me and i know i wont find that..ive been looking to hard and to long for it and i just cant do it any more...
if any one has anything to say..may be i just need to get a life and stop creating problems...but it gets to much and i cant deal with it..some times...i love my folks,my family...i dont want to leave them but i dont want to live this life some times...