peaches

[ksanden]

today was a very sad day. for i have cried for most part of it my dog peaches of 14 yrs died today. i have felt so much guilt thinking it was my fault. this is the story, my dog went outside and its got about 6 inces of snow here well an hour later my dad forgot to inform us that she was outside i was gone earlier and had came back and didnt notice well i think i may have ran her over.. i didnt feel anything like hitting her or anything, i have felt so bad trying to find out why she died she was a lopso opso matese sp??? sorry. she was white and hard to see in the snow she blends in so much. she didnt look as though she was hit though. but her eyes were big and it looks as though she might have gotten hit in the head. theres no marks as of being ran over by the tires. im here because i feel so bad that i might have done this to my dog i am crushed thinking its my fault.. the neighter which is a ***** he shot my cat 3 yrs ago and she still alive but he came over to inform us that our dog was in front of his garage and that she had been there for 1/2 an hour why didnt he tell us when he seen her in the first place. im so upset thinking about all of this i picked her frozen body out of the snow and cried and i felt as though i couldnt breathe, i feel maybe also he my neighbor might have done something to her and smack her upside the head. im jumping to many things but i am just so upset. sorry if this is to much info. i just want to no do you think i might have done this... i drive a pickup truck and i didnt feel anything. i need someone opinion on this i just want this guilt i feel to go away.. im just so upset.. i had so many good momeries with her and now i feel i may have took her life.. what kinda person does this.. thats how i feel.. thanks for reading and responding..
ksanden

[Jaybay]

If it makes you feel a bit better, I had to see my doctor for anti-depressants after losing my dog. :-)   If we really love and bond with our pets, we are affected in profound ways when they die.  It takes a special kind of person to keep animals as companions knowing that we are going to outlive them.  We take the risk of pain of loss for the years of joy we know they will give us.  I know plenty of people who won't have pets for the very reason that they can't handle their dying.  You and I both know it's worth it.  :-)

[ksanden]

thanks jaybay.. i walked outside today and saw her tiny paw prints and was struck in tears the house is quite and my daughter isnt taken this well at all either. shes 4. i still think that if i woudnt had found her and carried her in i wouldnt keep seeing flash backs of it. i wish i would have just been told all of this other than dealing w/ it. it feels so much harder.. i hope time does heal this and all this guilt i feel will go away.
ksanden

[Jaybay]

Bless your heart!  What a tragic, tragic situation.  I understand the guilt you're feeling right now, but you have to let that go.  My old dog died of pancreatitis a few years ago after I "generously" gave him a couple of fat-loaded pork rib bones.  He died a very painful death because of what I did, so I've been in your shoes.  Without a post-mortem, all you will be able to do is speculate as to cause of death.  Even then, an autopsy may only show trauma to the head, but won't tell you if it was from a vehicle or a baseball bat or a boot.  The one saving grace here is that your poor little pup did not suffer long.  She had a long, long life, and you obviously took great care of her for her to live for 14 years.  In time, the trauma of her death will lessen and you will be able to remember the good times you had with her.  Hang in there.  Time really does heal all wounds.  :-)