I was wondering if it is possible for ED to be caused in part by my anxiety over the fact that my wife is trying to get pregnant, even though Im not sure we are really financially ready to start a family?
Im a 31 year old guy, who's been married for almost 3 years to a beautiful, sweet 24 year old girl who I feel lucky to call my wife. Although we've always talked about looking at starting a family "about 3 to 5 years after getting married", my wife also wants to be a stay at home wife and quit her job once she gets pregnant, which is fine with me, but will require some creative financial planning on our part as well as some diligent payment of debts. We argued some back and forth last summer about whether it was time to start, with me continuing to have financial concerns and anxiety over whether or not Id be able to afford to maintain our current lifestyle on my salary alone, atleast until I get a few more of my annual raises at work. My wife was very impatient about wanting to start a family, and last year around Christmas, said that she had decided to stop taking birthcontrol after new years. I did not want to fight over it anymore at the time, so I said that I didnt object to her not taking birthcontrol if she didnt want to.
For the past six months or so, I have had alot of anxiety over this matter and I have found that I have a general loss of sexual appetite and that I seem to have developed what I might best described as psychological difficulty in getting and maintaining erections consistently, as well as difficulty getting to completion/ejaculating. I cannot think of anything else that this could be causing this ED suddenly, other than Fear of Pregnancy/Anxiety. I dont have any family history of ED that I know if, and I am in good overall health, and although my wife is a still a heavy chain smoker struggeling to overcome her two to three pack a day addiction, I have cut back tremendously and nearly entirely quit smoking, except for maybe indulging in the occasional cigarette or two once or twice a week. My financial Anxiety was only further compounded when I was involved in an auto-accident this spring, and although I had no physical injuries, I totaled my previously paid for car, and have since had to buy another car to get to work, adding a new car note to an already tight budget. My wife has attempted to be sympathetic about my "psychological ED", but she has been unyielding in her want to start a family now and to quit her job after becoming pregnant so she can become a stay at home mom like she has always dreamed of. In particular, as she becomes more and more concerned about her own fears of infertility, since she has been trying to get pregnant for six months without success, I dont want her to blame herself or become depressed over not having kids yet
So for my part, I have tried to keep her satisfied as best as I can, In some cases, I have resorted to pretending to have an orgasm when I am able to maintain an erection, so that she will not be mad at me.
My first question is whether or not other guys have had any similar kind of experience, and whether or not it is in fact possible to have "fear of pregnancy-Anxiety induced ED"? If so, what treatments are there?
My second question is, whether or not its OK that I try to look for the silver lining to this dark cloud of ED, in that it may serve as a "natural birth control" of sorts, possibly even for another year or two, until I feel more ready to shoulder all the financial burdens of raising a family on a single income?