Hello all, my name is Diana. I am a 37 year old female in Cuba MO. I have uvitits in my left eye that has been treated and in remission for a few years, but the treatment has caused even more problems. I now have a macula hole in my left eye, I had a cataract surgery in 2012, than a macula hole surgery 2014, it helped some for 10 months, then the hole reopened and became a stage 4, another surgery in 2015 but this one failed and I am left with a permanent large hole in my left central vision. My right eye they say is fine, but I have been through hell and I am ALWAYS afraid it will happen to my right eye. I have really REALLY bad anxiety and depression so I stress A LOT. Other health problems are Idiopathic intracranial hypertension.
I get an eye test from an ophthalmologist every 1 months, in 5 years I have seen 7 ophthalmologist. 2 new ones in the past 2 months as I have moved. I just had a complete eye exam a week ago, I now have some cyst on my left macula.
I made this new appointment with my retina spec as I had an increase of floaters in my right eye and more flashing, (Flashing is in both eyes, so far way worse and every day in the left eye, sometimes lasting for full day and night) I have had it off and on in my right eye now for two months. It’s on the bottom of the eye towards the tear duct. It’s not a lightning like flash, more like a strobe light. VERY fast and an LED like color ( A bluish white and bright ) He said after a complete eye exam, Including a peripheral test, an Fluorescein eye stain, and a few others I forget that my retina is just fine and there is nothing he can see at all wrong with my right eye. He said it’s an ocular migraine. IN both eyes? That it can sometimes last for months? I have been told by 3 specialists that it is just ocular migraine! BUT Why is it so bad in the left? AND why is it starting in the right??? I have had MRI's, an MRA's and a MRV's. Many CAT scans, 3 LP's, tons of blood tests and so many other tests that I can't remember their names, but all the doctors say my right eye is very healthy??? My retina doctor is sending me to a optic- neurologist Oct/03
I AM so afraid a disease is coming on. They found nothing wrong. I never believe them, part because it took 3 visits to the eye doc to even find out I had Uvetits the first time! I have had my eye tested so many times and can't help but feel like they are missing something.
Some new problems about a year old, I see what looks like dark neon black sparkles spots in my center vision. BAD on left eye right in the macula hole, and now in right eye I see them, mostly when I am playing on the computer to much or watch to much TV, AND in left eye WAY bad when I first wake up!!
Sorry this is so long, wanted people to know what I have been dealing with before I get into what's new. I am so hyper where of my eyes, I can see my own natural blind spot, I have been able to for a few years, sometimes I relax and I don't notice it, But again I also have OCD so I can't help but look for it. *****... On a page like this mostly white it looks large and almost black, on darker backgrounds I can't see it unless I blink, then it looks like BRIGHT white, and I see it bright like light memory when I close my eyes.
I also have a long black line that looks like a dark gray M only sideways on the left side of my right eye? Right above where it flashes? :( . I am always afraid I am going blind, I am under so much stress and I was on Xanax 6mg a day for years but a doctor took me off them cold turkey, I ended up in the hospital for a week because of this and feel even worse sense then!!! It’s been 6 month off Xanax and I don't feel any better and of course my anxiety is way worse so I can't relax or stop obsessing over all the things going on with me. I am so depressed...... And to add to it, no doctor will help with the anxiety! PLEASE anyone know what I am going through? Can anyone relate?? I feel so afraid and alone?!?
Thank you so much for your time.
Diana