Frustated and Sad, but there's Hope...

[SueGre]

So my RE was going to submit to my ins co for us to do IVF early. Apparently, for this to happen, my estradiol needs to be below 80 on my day 3. Well, it was 226, so we will be denied without a doubt. Only once it was 79, so it is possible it could happen again, but I'm not terribly encouraged.

Until yesterday I was under the impression that my ins co required that we do 3 cycles of Clomid, hcg, and IUI, then 3 cycles of Clomid, injectibles, and IUI, and then they would cover IVF.

But, nooooooo! They cover the 3 Clomid, hcg, and IUI cycles but to even move onto the injectibles part my estradiol needs to be under 80. So, we don't even get to move on from here unless I hit the under 80 mark!

I am so sad and so frustrated and feeling pretty discouraged.

So, we have decided to put in for adoption.

I'm going to be 41 this month, Rob is going to be 44 and we need to get moving. I know it can take up to a year to get a baby, but when you're pregnant you don't have your baby until almost a year anyway. I *loved* being pregnant but I really don't care how we get a little one. We just want one so badly!!

So I'll be doing research and making calls and hopefully do applications and have an interview sometime in the not-too-distant future.

I should mention that we are still doing Clomid this month and from all the monitoring with u/s I pretty much know when I O so we are going au natural this cycle. Just watch, after all the hcg and IUIs, this will be the one! (That's me being positive) We're going to be in D.C. for a week at Christmas with my in-law family, and it's SUCH a good time there, so maybe maybe maybe I'll implant while we're there! (That's me still being positive!)

***Congrats to Rachael, sooo exciting! Nice Going, Angel Cooper!***

***Congrats to Tina on starting her exciting journey! I just LOVE snowflakes!***

SSBD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~Sue

[cure65roses]

My nurse says that even if you stop the meds, your body has gotten into a rhythm of ovulating good and will more than likely keep that up on it's own, at least for a while.

If I am understanding correctly, the IVF protocol requires your estriodol to be under 80 on day 3 for your best chance of success.  And it looks like that's what they are hinting at with an injectible cycle too.

In my personal opinion, (and i may be wrong) I think that after all the clomid, your body is producing extra estriodol right now, so a break from clomid could work in your favor to help bring down that level.

I hope you get your little one, Sue, one way or another.  You do deserve for your dearest wish to come true...

(((Hugs)))

[kmcarino]

I am glad that you are moving forward:)  Keep trying naturally with the chlomid as much as you can.  I know however it happens you will have a baby in yoru arms.  Good luck!

[Tanker Chic]

I'm so sorry sue.  I really hoped the IUIs would take.  Do you still have one IUI before you hit your limit of 3?  Are you planning to do that after Christmas?  

I don't know what your plans with adoption are, but I have several friends who have adopted overseas and are all very happy with their families.  The lady across the street from me adopted two girls from china, I have two other friends that have adopted from china and my sister adopted two children from Ethiopia. My sister adopted siblings.  A 2 year old little girl and a 5 year old little boy. They are the sweetest kids.  If you are doing the overseas thing, join a good agency and join an online adoption forum.  You can learn a lot from them.  

I wish you all the luck with whatever you decide..

[scienceteacher79]

I like your attitude, as always :) Keep trying with the meds as much as you can all the while doing the adoption thing :) What about the route that Tina is taking - is that an option? I think it is a fantastic idea! AND you get to be preggo :) It's a win/win situation :) YAY baby!

And can't the doc fudge the numbers a bit (I know, I know, insurance fraud - whatever :) to show your est. numbers lower than they are? I mean come on! The doc will get more money if he can get the insurance to pay for the more aggressive treatment, duh?

And what about you paying for the injectibles (YIKES - I KNOW!!!) and trying one or two cycles.

I know it is going to happen Sue. I feel it in every ounce of my being that you will be pregnant. I don't know why I feel it so strongly but I do :) So, I have faith - don't you lose yours girly girl! I loves you!!

HUGS!

Jen

[kikicoates78]

I'm glad to see you are moving forward, however the steps may be, Good luck Sue, You deserve that bundle no matter how you get it!

((HUGS)) Keisha