Update on me-not good

[miky72]

Hello Ladies,
as some of you already know I had my BFP on January 26.
last week at 5 weeks 2 days I went for ultrasound and bloodwork and everything seemed fine they saw a sac in the uterus (last time I had an ectopic)and my levels more that doubled.
Today at 6 weeks 3 days I went again for ultrasound and bloodwork.
My RE could still see only a sac and my beta results just came in an in one week it raise only to 4774.
The nurse told me that they are noit hopeful and to come back on Friday for Ultrasound and bloodwork.
I guess they just want to check one more time before terminate the "pregnancy".
I'm so numb I cannot even cry.
SSBD to all of you,
Miky

[BabyBlue07]

make sure you have second opion before you let them do naything to you.  

i am sorry to hear that.  just keep up the spirit and things will going fine for you.  i will pray for you.

take care

[miky72]

Thank you again.
I'm still so numb that I do not know what to do with myself.
I'm not crying and its like I do not realize what is going on yet..
At this point I just want this to be over.
I do not have the strenght to go through what I went through last year so the only decision I've taken is that if they start with the "wait for the natural miscarriage" thing I will insist on a D&C.
SSBD to everybody,
Miky

[paranoidpatty]

Like the others, so sorry to hear this news.  We are going to be some really strong women after all the struggles we've been through.  I'll keep you in my prayers.

Trish.

[tina1111]

I am so sorry Miky. I know how you feel for sure and it is awful. I am praying there is better news on the follow up.

[empty]

Dear Milky

I hope and hope that the doctor was wrong for you. I send you lots of hugs and please vent all you want. You will be in my thoughts.

[mommyluv02]

Im so sorry i have been there three times. those words are just as devistationg as the actual loss. I will pray that you little one is just a slow grower and that when you go on Friday there it will be bouncing away with a strong heartbeat. good luck:)

[scienceteacher79]

I am so sorry. We are praying hard for you and your baby. May God bless you and keep you.

[sarge1]

Saying a prayer for you and baby, that there is still a chance everything can be ok.

[anne72]

Sorry! i really don't know what else to say:(

[ms320]

I am very sad for you.  I was truly hoping that this would be it for you.  I wish there was something else I could say or do.

Mary

[miky72]

Thank you all.
I'm still not able to cry I think it did not sink in yet.
My DH is away for business and I have none to share but you.
You are a fantastic support and I really do not know how i would survive without you.
Miky

[Helen72]

I am so sad  :(
I was really hoping after your last appointment that this was going to be it for you.  I just wish I could give you a hug.  You have been through so much already!  My heart goes out to you.  

[magda_s]

miky, I'm SO sorry.  I want to say something that will make you feel better but there isn't anything.  All I can say is that I was absolutely devastated a couple of weeks back when my BFP turned into a BFN.  Granted, that was only in week 3 so I can't imagine what you're going through but it was pretty awful nonetheless.  And yet, here I am just a short couple of weeks later... not even... and I'm already getting in gear for the next try.
I guess I'm just trying to say that despite the fact that I'm sure it doesn't seem so now, you WILL feel better and you WILL move on.  I remember thinking that that would happen but all I could think was how awful I felt right then and how I couldn't WAIT for time to just go by so I could get to the point when it wouldn't feel quite so awful.  So you know what I did?  I decided, if I can't fight it, I'll just give in to it.  And give in to it, I did!  I WALLOWED in misery... I figured, I can pretend I feel better and hold it in or I can just let it all out.  I felt very strange about it at first... not really what i normally do.  But the wonderful women on this forum gave me exactly what I needed... support along the way to the light at the end of the tunnel.
Sorry... didn't mean to make it sound quite so melo-dramatic but that's how it was!
I hope you feel better soon.  Until you do, we're all here for you.

[StillTrying101]

I am so sorry. I can feel your pain. I went thu this same thing about a year ago. It's awful.
Hang in there.

~Kristie

[ashort]

I'm sooooo sorry to hear your news.  I had one m/c and it is the worst feeling in the world.  I hope that on Friday they find something different.  I wish you all the best and you will be in my prayers!

[G_S]

I am sorry to hear about what you are going through....cant the docs put you on progesterone to support pregnancy...why dont you check with them...I am sure they can give you some hormones you need

[stillwaiting52]

I am sorry to hear your news, hang in there and don't forget you have all of us who know just what you are going through. ((hugs))

[Jenny5]

i'm so sorry milky i know what you are going to. I have had 2 m/c and i know the pain you feel. Hope everything turns around sometimes even at 6 weeks is to soon to see anything than the sac. There are stories out here that have seen a heart beat at 7 or more weeks.But the beta not going the way it should is not a good sign.With my second pregnancy we saw a heartbeat at 4 weeks and the heart had stopped beating at 8 weeks. A couple of days later i m/c. Good luck and i keep you in my prayers.

[babyalive]

Prayers and hugs your way.  Hold onto what hope you can.  Anything can happen over the next few days and drs. aren't always right!  Hang in there.  

[iluvdasies]

i'm so sorry.  i hate the dreaded words, (i've heard twice now), "We're not hopeful."  just try and hang in there, prayers and hugs.
jessie

[jenandjon]

Sweetie...I'm so sorry.  I know u must be devestated.  Hold on to hope though until u get through that next u/s.  Thinking of u.

[jastinker]

I am so sorry to hear your news. I know you were so excited to have a BFP. Hang in there I am thinking of you and sending gppd thoughts your way.

Take care of yourself right now

[wanting4#1]

Oh, Miky! I am sooooo sorry! I saw your mood and just read this post.  Oh, i don't even know what to say.  I am here if you want to talk - just send me a note!  I am praying for you....

{{Hugs}}

Lisa