A Quick hit of depression today

[babycries]

Everday I wake up to the laughs of little preschoolers because I live in front of a grammar school. I look out the window and see the little ones playing, and realizing none of them are mine. So I got up and drove to the mall where i had to buy baby shower gifts for a co-worker who's having a little boy. Im in Carters of course, and every mother seems to have newborn that seemed to stare directly at me. So Im in the isle picking out washclothes, socks, bottles, onesies, and the woman in the isle said "Oh my you look like my grandaughter... So the little girl walked from behind her and we actually did resemble alot , I have a baby face, always had, Later on after walking out the store into the car i just broke down in tears. Somewhat feeling like a failure. Sorry just needed to vent alittle,

Thanks...

[dorti]

I still do not understand why it happened to me. I do not know anybody from my closest family who would have a problem to get pregnant. For all these years (I am married for 16 years) all my cousins and friends were getting pregnant 1,2 even three times (almost all of them are younger than me). My two friends had abortions...
I still do not understand why it had to happened to me. To be a mommy that was always my dream. I couldn't image my life without my own children.
When I was 18 I had a boyfriend-we had sex once. After that, my period was late more than 10 days. While we were waiting for that period to show up we were terrified. My "boyfriend "  told me if I will be pregnant  I have to get an abortion. I said absolutely NO ( even I knew my father will probably kill me if I have a child without a daddy). Well, finally I got my period and that was the end of that relationship.
I deserve a chance to be a mother... We all do. I wish you guys all the best.

[babycries]

Thankyou! I do feel better now, I need to have women that understand my emotions, Men think its PMS. lol


Babydust to all!

[usuk]

i am so sorry. sometimes life is like one big hallmark card of baby-ness. you have a lovely heart and that is something to be proud of. some days i can look this whole baby world right in the face, and other days i avoid the baby aisle in target like the other post said. usually optimistic during the 2ww and a mess of tears after AF. hang in there.

[Nat256]

I don't know that I can say anything that will make you feel better except that you are not alone. I have been avoiding my little nieces for close to a month now. I walk the long way around to avoid the baby aisles in the store. I had a nervous breakdown in the Target parking lot after seeing a MORBIDLY obeese woman (and trust me I'm no stringpole) gently caring for her newborn. This really set me off because I have been working so hard, giving up sweets and caffine, and doing everything that I could to get pregnant and be just a little more healthy. It's disappointing, it's depressing, and it robs us of something that is so basic and so human that it makes us feel like less of one. Cry, hit something, scream, but just know that you are strong and you can get through this. Sending a lot of luck and good wishes your way. :) Hang in there.

[Mybabypooh]

Wow, your story brought tears to my eyes because I had a similar experience a while ago. I was in Burlingtons and saw a woman with a beautiful baby girl about 6 months old, as I walked away I just started to cry because I've been trying for so long to have a child....but what else can we do but continue to try. Our blessings are around the corner, venting is healthy because it makes us feel better after a good cry. You are not a failure so, stay encouraged and have faith:)