IVF cycle 2

[Uenvythis]

I feel crushed and depressed. I have to cope with the fact I'm infertile. I say it with embarresment and shame.
I'm tired of being tired.
I'm about to go into my 2bd cycle. Not sure if I will take gonorelix this time instead of lupron because I ovulated on lupron. Not sure if it was the birth control or the Lupron. I feel like a guinea pig. I'm not always sad. I have my moments of sadness yet get back up. I want a baby. Im grateful to have another opportunity. I'm frustrated with my drs office lack of communication. I'm frustrated with having so many issues gettng pregnant. I feel alone in this because no one around me is Infertile. I'm embarrassed beyond measure.

[Uenvythis]

I no longer feel shame! What I meant by shame was shame that I needed Ivf. I wanted to be "normal" like everyone else around me. I'm over that now!

[Uenvythis]

Thanx
I feel so much better!
And yes I know it's not my fault but it's still embarrassing.

[honey1674]

hi like Annie said its not you're fault i understand i already have 3 kids but two were from my first marriage and 1 with my husband now and like for 3 years we tried because i wanted for my son so he doesn't feel left out the other two are older and he doesn't have nobody to share but we try and tried and i did felt sad because of it my family always asking me why not so but i realize the its not meant to be so maybe there is another option,my son now understand and he doesn't ask any more but don't loose hope and their are other options too so good luck with anything the u do i hope u feel better soon .  

[AnnieBrooke]

I understand and have felt the frustration, the irritation at the lack of communication, and the sadness.  However, I don't understand why you feel shame or embarrassment.  Do you feel like you brought this on yourself?  If not, well, it is just the hand you were dealt in life.  Why be embarrassed at all, much less beyond measure?  You didn't bring this on yourself, it's not your fault.