I lost the battle again

[Jenny5]

Girls i had my appt. with the re today and the sac is definnitely empty. The other sac is not growing so none of them is ok. I decided to do and D&C this time since is my 3m/c and the other two were naturally. I had testing done after my second m/c and everything seems fine from my husband end and mine. So no one can explain why this continues happening.I want to do IVF next time since that way the can select the egg quality but i'm so sad that i lost this pregnancy to. I don't have the courage to get pregnant again. Even if i do ivf i cannot efford more than 1 cycle cause i don't have insu. and everything will be paid out of pocket.I'm so bumped and angry i cannot even cry this time.I'm starting to think that i'm fighting with God and fate and that none of them wants me to have a baby.I feel so bad for my Dh, he has been so excited with every pregnancy, and everytime has been one dissapointment after another.

[prays4sleep]

I can completely relate to what you feel, I have no insurance also. I have been pregnant four times, two ectopics ( I suspect three but my doctor could never confirm) and two miscarriages.  And I will only get one shot at IVF if any at all.  You will be in my prayers.

[BabyBlue07]

Don't give up on a hope because of the length of time it takes--the time will pass anyway.

Sorry to hear about your loss.  Just think that everything happen for a purpose.  

God bless you

[jenandjon]

So sorry to hear about your loss.  I know the fertility treatment center I was going to had a plan where you could do three cycles for $15K and if you didn't get pregnant they would refund it.  There's also one in Chicago, IL like that.  Maybe that would be an option for you.  Just a thought.  Don't give up.  Our hearts go out to you hun.

[miky72]

HI Jenny,
I'm so sorry this is happening to you too.
I had the same thing but only one sac -empty.
I'm still trying to recover but its not easy.
We will get pregnant and we will be wonderful mother.
We are here to give each other courage!
I'm here for you,
Miky

[empty]

Hi Jenny - i am so sorry. I remember after my first miscarriage i thought i am never going through this heartache again but just give yourself some crying time and in your heart you will know whether you are going to battle on. We are going to be mothers - its just taking us more baking time.

Hugs

[ashort]

Jenny,
I'm soooo sorry.  I've been waiting for you to post.  I was holding out hope everything was okay for you.  I know how you feel and I'm here to talk if you want to.  My Dh has been really bummed too.  I feel more upset for him then me.  What does your RE say about IVF?  When are you having your D and C.  I'll be praying for you and keep in touch....

[Amyk164]

I've been through all though arguements with God myself. He seems to be the first one we thank & the first one we blame. Finally I found some solace in believing that maybe my (m/c) child might not be healthy & God was actually preventing further heartache...At least until the healthy baby was ready to be born. I wish I could wave a majic wand for you, but know that you're in my prayers.