Best Wishes to Everyone

[LJ307]

Hi all of you wanna be mommas.  I really wish and hope you get BFP!!  I hope those of you in 2ww get lovely BFP Christmas presents.   The rest of you I wish and pray for your dreams of motherhood to come through.  I can't stop crying.  My kids are due back into the classroom and I'm falling to pieces.   I Just got my blood work back for cd 10 FSH and it's 25.  This is not a good sign and pregnacy is in the "No way in he**" category at this point.

Thanks to all of you who've been encouraging me this far.  I won't be signing on any longer.  It is just too painful.

Lisa

[PhenomenalWoman]

Nothing worth fighting for was ever easy....but you have to hold on and hang in there.  This is why we are here.  We all suffer from the same thing and that's wanting to be mommies either again or at least for the first time!  You have to believe that your unborn is worth it....Believe it or not your a Mother before you even bring life into this world.  It takes for you to take care of yourself  as if you are already with child. Making sure that mentally, emotionally and spiritually you are filled with the positive nurturing that can be passed on to your child so that he/she can be brought into a healthy environment.  It's stressful...I know!  But I had to learn to not make it a project and enjoy the time me and my husband can spend alone while we can.  Although we have a son already it still take time away from us...you know...either to tired to be intimate, jobs scheduling, family times and outings....Now we're making time for us.  Just me and him!  We make sure to put aside 1 day everyweek or other week for date night.  That means we don't talk about how we didnt get pregnant this month, no job issues, no talking about our son...Just Me and Him enjoying each other and reassuring how much we love each other and reminding each other of what we have already to be thankful for....our health, our home, being able to support our family...the simple things that we sometimes over look when you know that there is someone, somewhere who is going threw something much worse than you!.....When your bundle of joy does come and he/she get's older and they do something to **** you off like my son when he was 2 dumped my gucci purse in the toilet playing around....lol! I laugh now but then it wasn't so funny! Just remember this day how the love for them is what brought them here and not to decide to kill'm for what they did.....LOL!....You're just having an emotional break down...been there trust me and it will go away...lots of xoxoxoxo..to you!

[zansi]

Hi Lisa, I just read your news. I am so sorry to hear of your FSH result. But I have researched and read many stories of woman that got pregnant even with their FSH higher than yours. Medical opinion is just one aspect of the miracle of birth. So many times doctors are wrong and miracles happen. Don't give up. And if your doctor does not want to proceed find someone who is more encouraging and prepared to help you. Don't belive always what they tell you. Perhaps it would help to get some inspiring dvds and books to keep your spirit up. I also at times doubt myself and think I must be crazy to try my first IVF at 45, with thyroid antibodies problem and going through a divorce and with no support system. But than I think perhaps God has a plan and I must give it chance and see what happens. Maybe he has plan for you but you wont know unless you try. Big hug. Zansi.

[Helen72]

I was very frustrated with ttc till I saw a specialist.  A  knowledgeable doc is always encouraging even when they try to keep our hopes realistic.  I hope your visit in January will be productive.  

While I am in tww my students are in final exams week!  I am writing my final exams and when my students see them they will probably not think I am caring or kind  :)
Thank you for your complements.

[Lexima]

You've been so encouraging to all of us here, and I'm so sorry to hear your bad news.  Please don't loose hope just yet and see what a specialist has to offer.  

I hope you don't leave the forum so we can continue to provide encouragement and support for you.

[LJ307]

No, my dr. hasn't talked with me at all about it.  All the knowledge I have is from my on-line research. I've tried e-mailing my dr. and phoning him, I don't get any response back.  His nurse just told me with levels that high there is nothing they can do for me.  I do still have an appt. with a specialist on Jan. 10th that I'll most likely go to, though I'm not very optimistic.  ALL the research indicates, that yes your FSH may jump around a bit, but overall your prognosis is only as good as the highest level you tested for.  Meaning even if it jumps back down to 16, my fertility is still only as good as the level 25.  Most, in fact practically all clinics won't even accept a woman of my age with FSH above 20, since mine is 25 it doesn't leave much hope.  

I will go to the specialist, but I'm sure he will say donor eggs are my only option and success rates are not great even then with FSH so high.  Financially, I don't believe donor eggs are an option for me.

I know I said I wouldn't log on any longer, but I do still want to keep up with what is happening with my 2ww pals, and others.  So, you may hear from me from time to time. I'm taking a personal day from work today.  I was simply too distraught to function.  Just got out of bed and it's 11:30 in the afternoon.  

OK.  No downers.  There is hope for all of you.  BUT,  please don't wait.  Had I known that fertility declines so drastically after 40 and in particular at 42 I never would have waited so long.  Keep trying all of you!!!!   Thank you for such encouragement.

Helen72 - you are such a caring and kind person yourself.  Your students are sooo lucky to be in your presence and learn from you!

[tina1111]

Has our dr gone over those #'s and what they mean with you? FSH during follicular phase normal range is 2.5-10.2   midcycle is 3.1-17.7    Day 10 FSH is not the same as day 3 FSH.  Are they going to check it again during the luteal phase to see if it goes back down?

I am sorry you are going through this ((hugs))

[Heather5]

I'm also truly sorry about your results...but please don't leave us!!! At least wait until you see the RE... It might not be as bad as it sounds.

We would really miss you around here if you left!

[BabyBlue07]

I am sorry to hear that.  Just keep up the hope.  One day we will get our dream come true.  Just keep up your spirit and have faith in God.  

Take care

[Helen72]

I am so sorry about the bad test.  Please don't throw in the towel yet.  Wait to see an RE.  A specialist will have a plan worked out for you.  You are so caring and kind.  I so much hope motherhood is in your future.