Lost my Daddy on November 6, 2010

[mommyoffive0529]

Just wanted to say hello everyone...I miss my Dad and I feel so sorry the way he suffered...he was diagnosed with pancreaic cancer on August 8th and died in November...It just happened so fast and I ws not ready for it..no one ever is...well I am also deal with quitting a pill addiction at the same time and I am 12 days clean but all the grief is starting to get me...I have a lot of anxiety and I was wondering if this is normal...Wish you all happiness and no saddness as I wish for myself, take care

[mommyoffive0529]

Oh my goodness...who's child was it?  What happened?  That has got to be the worst..i dont even want to think it?  What happened to the poor baby?  How old were they?

[lindacampbell]

I totally feel your pain.  I lost my dad on December 10th to prostate cancer.  He was diagnosed in September of 2008.  I think if he had gotten himself checked a year earlier, he might have lived longer.  The prostate cancer may have even been gone.  He could have had the prostate removed if he had gotten checked earlier.  I miss my dad so much.  

What makes my grief even worse is that I didn't allow myself to grieve sooner than today when I went to a little child's funeral this morning.  I totally lost it, crying and all.

Give yourself credit.  You are doing good with your recovery.  He's looking down and watching you trying to take care of you.  I'm sure that's what he wants.  Keep going, you CAN do it.  Keep giving yourself pats on the back for each day that you're clean.

[mammo]

I am so sorry for your loss. and it's even more difficult when you have watched them suffer so much.  I hope you can find comfort in knowing your dad is now free of pain and suffering. You need to seek help with this along with quitting your pill addiction, don't put too much pressure on yourself by feeling you can handle all of this alone, not fair to do to yourself!  There are times in life when we all need help, and I think this is one for you.  Stay strong, your dad lives on in you and the thing he wants most is for you to be healthy and happy.  Make him proud.....it's a wonderful tribute to him!  I wish you all the best and do take care.