Hi, My 1st time posting. The last year has been a long and difficult one. It's a long story but, the most devastating thing that happened was, I lost the baby girl I'd raised since she was 3 1/2 months, and who'd just turned 4. Had just about finished w/ home study to finalize adoption, had a temporary bump in the road, and cps took her. Tried to fight in court but, lost in 5 days. I never even got to say goodbye to her. All she knows is suddenly Mommy was gone. My husband was allowed 1 visit in March. He took some pics. and they were heartbreaking! My beautiful, happy, little angel looked like she had the world on her shoulders. Her eyes which always sparkled, were of an old soul. I've begged the worker to let me see her 1 last time so I can reassure her that I do still love her and that she didn't do anything wrong, etc... So far my pleas have fallen on deaf ears. I've been majorly depressed since the end of Jan. I guess this could be a small attempt to pull myself back from the edge I'm standing on, anyways thanks for listening.