i miss you gram

[turkee23]

been almost a year, and i just started crying my eyes out..... is this ever going to get easier??.....the holidays are coming and you left us ONE week b4 christmas.... how are we supposed to get through it this year??..... i know you have wanted us to be together on christmas eve, cause thats what you did every year since you had kids, and then we mutiplied.......and again...... i hope you know that your 3 kids and 7 grand kids and 2 great grand kids are missing you like crazy....every single day...not a day goes by that i dont think about you....pray to god that he is taking good care of you......i know grandpa is loving every min of you, he was waiting for you for 34 years, thats a long time.... i hope you in heaven living life to the fullest right now..... i will see you again one day..... but will it ever get easier here with out you ???..... i dont think so...... love you .....

[Judy246]

Oh, sweety, the first "everything" is sooo hard and thanksgiving was my mom's birthday. I bought her a dozen pink roses and her grave is beautiful. After 2 yrs, I promise it will get "bearable", but it's ok to miss and grieve for our grandma. You know she loves you and death can never take that love or bond away. Believe, have faith and trust in God, without doubt that you will see her one day in His time. She's in a place wher we can only imagine. It will be ok, one day at a time and we are here to support your or simply listen to you. Hugs, Judy

[turkee23]

today is december 1st... my grandma for sick on the 6th and left me on the 18th.... this is going to be a HARD month.... we barely made it through thanksgiving with out tears.....i know your watching over us..... wish i could get a sign that you hear me talking to you at night.... i hope you liked you roses i brought you on thanksgiving... i will see you again in about 2 weeks on that day you left  me......i miss you grandma....more then anything....i would give back everything i have to have you back......

lisa is going to make, or try to make your christmas cookies... im going to try but i dont know if i can......

please help mom and aunt dee dee get through this, they are having a really tough time with this time of year.....its hard.....they need your healing hands to help them.....xoxoxox

[Judy246]

Also, Every year for Christmas, I buy beautiful new tree ornament representing the events that happened in my fammily that year. This year although I have an old angel ornament representing my mom, I going to buy another one, just because she will always be part of my family and a new born baby angel to represent my new baby niece Caitlyn born this past July. I've made it a tradition every year. I have one of my entire family, a dog angel when my dog was alive and a canary for my bird that passed away also.  I recommend that you start a special tradition to honor your grandma and family too. As the years pass, it's nice to look back at the years through these Christmas ornaments. Hugs, Judy

[PromisedLand]

My grandmother (on my mother's side) died about 20 years ago and I often think about her..a gentle lady from Mississippi who married a man named John and had a daughter named Margaret (my mother)..they ran a "filling station" way back in the old days...eventually my dad and mother met and us boys (3 of us) came along...sadly she died when I was 8...it tore my grandmother to pieces...ten days later, my grandfather, her husband, died of a heart attack..and she was alone...even as a young man I could see how strong her faith was...she constantly played old gospel music on her beat up
record player...and was constantly reading her Bible and praying..My Dad ultimately remarried but remained in charge of her finances...he was all she had..and then my dad died and within a month by grandmother passed away from I guess what we would now call alzheimers...

I still miss here and think of her quite a bit...]

Jim

[Judy246]

The first everything is soooo hard. In my family mom died in July and my brother and wife loss their first baby 2 weeks before Christmas! It was surreal and like hell. The second Christmas the family got together, because she would have it no other way and it was nice. My father was a little numb, but we got through it. Celebrate your grandma's life an legacy and she would want you all to enjoy a peaceful holiday. I took flowers to my mom's grave for Christmas and wrote "Loved" on the snow, on top of her grave. It will get easier somewhat, but we don't have a choice to adjust to what we can't change or have control over.  I'm scared. Dad is 84. He's doing great, but I'm scared, because I know I will do this all over again...every year that passes, scares me.

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers...your friends, Judy