Six years ago we lost a son 2 hours after he was born due to prematurity..he was born 12/20/2001..At this time as the holidays approach I find it very hard to concentrate and kinda retreat and keep things to myself..I feel horrible that I do this because this is suppose to be joyous time of the year and my other kids don't understand..How do I come to terms with this and not let it affect me like this so my other children that are here with me can enjoy the holidays like they should be able to?