Death of my Dad

[absolutelyanonymous]

My dad died on April 21, 2010...very recently.  At first I couldn't stop crying, begging God to let me have him back.  (Crazy, I know.)  Now I don't cry so much, but have an incredibly hard time just getting out of bed in the morning.  My doctor has given me some medication for anxiety, and if I don't take it, I get a panic attack.  What is wrong with me?  I miss my dad a lot, especially for advice, etc., but he was 84 and suffering.  I didn't want him to suffer anymore, but when he died, I could hardly believe it.  HELP!  I feel like I am most certainly going crazy.

[Charetti]

I lost my Dad in Jan 09 and I was also traumatized.  I leaned on him a fair bit and still miss him every time I have a question or need some help. I went to a counselor and got on an antidepressant.  I still greived but it was more bearable and I could get on with my life.

[kay2486]

you need to take this mediaction your doctor gave you, he will wean you off it when you are ready, but you may want to use it a while, it depends what drug he has gave you, if its a beta blocker then dont stop taking them without your doctors consent if you do you will have a reaction to them, your anxiety will cause these panic attacks, i hope you get well soon

[mammo]

I am so sorry for your loss.  No, nothing you do is crazy after losing a loved one.  Your loss was very recent, have you truly mourned the loss of your dad?  Sometimes we want to be strong and try to carry on, when in reality we need to take time and mourn our loss.  Depression/Anxiety can cause panic attacks, and it usually results from something traumatic we've experienced but haven't truly dealt with.  Taking some time to yourself may help, or therapy would be very beneficial.  I know you didn't want to see him suffer any longer, and yet this was your dad, your rock, and you had to let him go.  An extremely sad time for you.  Think about what your dad would say to you right now, and most of all what he wants for you. He knows you are sad, and need to take time to mourn this loss, but then he wants you to have a good and happy life, and this will make him very happy and then he can truly rest in peace.  Take the time you need, but also think about therapy, it can help a lot.  Big hugs to you........