hurt ne soo deep

[devon715]

soo last year my father died i was 19 years old and he died 3 weeks before i had my daughter ( his first grandchild) any way this girl who use to be my bestfriend wrote me a message the other night i have no talked to her since 2 months after he died anyways she wrote me this message saying that i am pathetic and i am always depressed and that i am so needy and that i should just grow up already because he is not coming back...she said how i act is annoying and i am not the same person...now you know the only reason why i ever said anything is because she was honestly like my sister...i am really hurt and i have not said one word to her in months and she wrote me that...what do i do what do i say...i mean ya i am upset my father died...suddenly i found him, how could she say that is it my fault?

[chellek]

  jml1986 is so right, one day she will experience that pain too. I lost my dad last year to colon cancer, he was only 59. I was there 24/7 for his last few days, and I was the one who always took him to chemo and did anything at all that he needed. I've always been my daddy's girl!
  I feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest, and there will always be a hole there that no-one else can fill. I know exactly how you feel. I didn't and still don't want to talk to anyone or even be around anyone. I can see that my friends have kind of backed away and don't really keep in touch, because even after a year, I stay SO depressed. I don't think I care anymore.
  I am so sorry for your loss. You are so young. I was 29, now 30, and I can't imagine having lost him any sooner.

[devon715]

Thanks and i am sorry for your loss i guess right now i just never want to see her or say anything to her again for she will understand when she losses her father it hurts soo bad

[jml1986]

Personally people like that are not worth your time. I also lost my father suddenly nine years ago and I gotta tell you, my world crumbled. I can also tell you that at the time my dad died I was 37 years old, but I turned back into a 4 year old little girl who just wanted her daddy back. I have never been so lost and alone in my life, and I have never hurt so deep and for so long. I think it took a good two years before I was really able to breathe again. Someday that girl will know the pain you are feeling, it may not be for a long time, but she will know it, and at that time, you then will be able to say to her, I know how you feel.

[devon715]

I also was the first one to find him..i mean she has no idea what that is like i just cannot handle her saying that:(