Hi Drs,
I suffer from severe OCD and see a Therapist and Psychiatrist for it, so warning, I WORRY A LOT!
I have been married 5 years and both my wife and I are very faithfully to each other. Recently I started worrying about the time before I was married. A year before I was with my wife (6 years ago), I was with a female of unknown status. We played around with our hands for a while, but did not have vaginal or anal intercourse. But while we were playing around some of her vaginal fluid dripped onto my face. I don’t think it got into my mouth or eyes or anything, I can’t be 100% sure.
Two months ago I saw something about HIV and thought back to that experience 6 years ago before I was married and started freaking out. I started Googling symptoms, of course after Googling the symptoms I started to experience the symptoms.
I really started to freak out. I did an OraQuick HIV At-Home test about two months ago. It was negative. I chilled for a few minutes then I started worrying that maybe I did it wrong. Two weeks later I did another one and it was negative. I chilled out for about a month and then I felt like I as having more symptoms so I started to freak out. My wife told me to go to the doctor and get an antibody blood test. Last month I went and had an antibody blood test from LabCorp. It came back negative. I chilled out for a few days and then started freaking out again. Last week I talked my wife into going to the doctor and getting an antibody HIV test. She went and had the same test I had and it came back negative.
I can’t stop worrying, my wife, Doctor, Therapist, Psychiatrist all say it’s in my head and I am causing all the symptoms that I do not have HIV and I need to move on.
A friend told me I could get a HIV RNA PCR test to confirm all my negatives but I can’t afford that.
Do you think my exposure was high risk? Do you think I need to do any more testing? Or is it time to move on because I in fact do not have HIV?
Thank you!