1 Year Post Coming - God I'm Scared

[nygirl7]

OK how stupid is this........I'm about two or three weeks away from my one year post test and all of a sudden I'm so SCARED I can't breath.  Logically, my mind says don't be stupid but my tests have been so screwed up with the false positive and then finally the UNDs that I can't stand it.

Honestly I'm almost thinking of not even getting it.  hey my doctor seems to have forgotten it...no word from him.....

has everybody taken all of their post treatment tests?  I'm sort of just wanting to let it go and live with the SVR of the 8 month test result...all of a sudden I'm just petrified again like during treatment.

Anybody out there skipped the year test?

[beamishboy]

hey..!..of course you're on edge over the test...just damned healthy mental exercise...i am  sure you will enjoy the results-gonna be SVR !!again&again&again.
and i'm impressed w/ the extra-workload...((debbie)), everythings gonna be alright...tommy

[susan400]

Debbie, I haven't seen this post of yours until just now.  You know how it is w/this new Medhelp and all...   Anyway, I think you should know by now, that I'm most definitely in your corner!  You go girl!  You rock!   You are going to be fine, I'm and fairly certain of it.  I just cannot imagine any other reading than a big 'ol undetected!    So, girlfriend, 'suck it up',  go on, get it done!   :)

Susan

[cruelworld]

so glad to hear that news. this whole thing has cost you a full 3 years of sheer disaster. i guess you would have to be recovering
at least some to survive all the **** that youve been through lately.
so glad you mentioned the thyroid thing. mine is starting to go
here at week 57 and im a little worried about it. i was under the
impression that synthroid did a great job of fixing this. is this not true?
it seems in your case, the thyroid problem is frustrating but livable.
is that an accurate assessment or is it really pretty bad?

[FloridaMouse]

Just wanted to say I understand the fear.  I was stunned that I was just as nervouse starting a 2nd round of treatment as I was the first.  You would think that since I had already done it once that it wouldn't be as nerve racking.  Guess we heppers will always carry some amount of fear.

Mouse

[nygirl7]

I'm doing much much better health wise.  I think if other things didn't make me so nutty I could say back to pre-treatment days FINALLY.

It was worth it.  It's been almost a year but I can honestly say that my strength is finally coming back. In fact, I started waiting tables at a fancy restaurant two days a week after this job for extra money to try and get myself out of debt!  six months ago, I could NOT have even THOUGHT about doing that. It's hard physical work and I became an absolute marshmallow during treatment.

All in all - it might take longer and be a harder road for the 72 but...for SVR it's worth it.

I wish to God my thyroid would straighten out but it doesn't seem to be coming back. That's my biggest problem - after a lifetime of dieting to be skinny now if I don't eat for a week I don't think I'd lose anything so I have to be VERY careful. I feel like I should have eaten every cheesburger deluxe that I gave up!!!!   ;)

So see...when you consider that that is my biggest problem.........alls well - as long as this test is negative then believe me - it was WORTH IT ALL     :)

[charm27]

I wish you nothing but the best! And you will have it!!

Cham27