Hello. I have had hemorrhoids ever since I can remember. I’m 24 now, and I developed this mad insane obsession of wanting to make sure I clean up with baby wipes... all the way inside, deep in there till no more poop stains appeared on the baby wipes. I got so used to this over the past two years, inserting a finger deep inside with a baby wipe that now I’m exhausted just thinking about pooping. It takes me 30 minutes to keep clean. I hate being dirty, I don’t like a sticky or itchy bum after pooping so I clean as much as i can. Now i strain harder to poop and overall, I just want to make sure the pressure from my finger and the excessive straining isn’t damaging my guts inside.... this is dramatic but I know i need surgery for my hemorrhoids for sure.