I am really sorry to hear about your illness bro. I am happy though, that you discovered what the ailments are, I hope that something will work out for you to get the treatment that you need.
by the way, my **** smells bad, and my fingers are wrinkly and has small bumps on it because I have sensitive skin. The constant lubrication has irritated it.
So since June 1, I have been in a constant cycle of PMO. It reached to the point where I spent hours in front the screen, masturbating/stroking/fapping/playing with myself even when I wasn't aroused. I kept pushing my self for days and hours at a time edging. I sunk to a whole new low of the content I was watching... I felt like I gave up on trying to get better and kept giving in to the desires on a whim.
So since yesterday, I started watching the motivational videos I discovered last year and encouraging myself to get through these first few weeks until I break free and quit.
since PMO'ing
I have been going to work late every single day
I literally feel like a zombie, I have no energy when I walking
I have stopped studying and I have an important exam coming up
I feel slouched and weak, I feel crappy at times
I think I make irrational decisions, I spend money on a whim without thinking exactly if it is worth it.
I found that I want to play video games more as well.
I don't feel that passion I was feeling for a woman, I have a numbness
I procrastinate a lot, and feel indifferent towards my friends.
I neglect a lot of my responsibilities and as such limit my own growth potential.
I am making a conscious decision to start a life of no PORN and NO MASTURBATION. I have reached the same conclusion that masturbating adds NOTHING to my life. All it does is waste my precious semen, my life seed, and leaves me with low or no energy. Distracts me from things I should be focusing on. Of course some people my feel that a one wank is healthy. But why do it?? If it ain't with a real partner then it is completely a waste of time. I felt so much better when I was on my streak of a 100 days no PMO. I am sick of this habit that I keep doing, every single time I PMO I feel like I am betraying humanity.
I was feeling really bad to post on the forum because of the joy I felt when i was off this self inflicted abuse. Now, I am ready to be open again, I realize reading about this entire ordeal over and over and being knowledgeable gives me the motivation I need. So, here I am step 1, day 1.
*Wanders not wonders my bad
Ok so I want to try to do a week without any masturbation, but there are a couple problems here. One I sometimes use masturbation to get to sleep which sometimes helps. And Two After about 2 or 3 days without doing it which is a long time for me as I usually do it daily everyday between 1-3 times a day My mind starts wondering and thinking about dating and relationships. I am a mid 20s Loner never dated and have No interest in Ever dating, but when I go days without masturbating like I said my mind wonders and tricks me into thinking I want to date because ive gone days without a release. After I masturbate and release after 2 or 3 days of Not doing it, its like wow why was I even thinking about any of that and once again couldnt care less about relationships/dating. How do I forget about women while doing my week because the longer I go without masturbating the more my mind tricks me and the more I think about relationships, when I Never think about them when doing it daily???
Hi all,
Just a quick word to let you know that I met a girl just over two weeks ago, and I am absolutely crazy about her. We have started going out and have had sex a few times, in different positions.
I have no problem staying hard (we have been doing it without protection from the get go) the first time we have sex (in an evening), but it gets a little more difficult the second and third time and even the following morning, I guess because we are more tired...
Anyway, I really feel like I am getting better, both physically and psychologically. Having a regular sexual partner really does help, especially when there are feelings involved !
Please wish me luck because I really really want to keep this girl :-D
Take care everyone !