Is this is some type of mood disorder?!?

[moodymania0023]

So, I've been having terrible mood swings lately, from being so depressed I feel like I haven't slept in a week and 99% of the time I want to kill myself and have constant suicidal thoughts and self harming, to being the most productive, creative, hyper, bubbly, talkative "I don't need any sleep" kind of person several times a day (from about seventy mood swings down to just two, varying - as in going from depressed to hyper.)

When I'm depressed - like I mentioned above - all I want to do is die and self harm to have a distraction for a few moments. I have no energy and everything's "boring" and "useless."

When I'm hyper, everything feels one hundred times vivid and beautiful - life's AMAZING, in other words. I also become really self confident and everything I do is sped up, most of the time. Sometimes I am super irritable when I'm hyper and so I snap at everyone and everything, kind of like rage or something, then sometimes it gets so bad I just don't even feel present anymore (this happens with all the moods, though. The intensity of them varies - to what seems to be - randomly, as with the cycles of them everyday are random.)

No one and nothing seems to change or affect my unpredictable moods at all (except for going from happy-hyper to mad-hyper).

Any ideas on what this may be?

[theshycrier]

i think you have bipolar disorder, which is going from depressed to manic  - overly happy- back to depressed and then back again. what you discribe is pretty much exactly what bipolar disorder is. although, it is easily treated. you should probably research bipolar disorder just to see for yourself first, then get help. bipolar disorder can also be called manic depressive disorder.

[Peter Forster]

Of course, it is not possible to diagnose someone by e-mail, however, what you described sounds very much like Bipolar. I agree that it would be very important for you to see a psychiatrist who could not only make the proper diagnosis, but who could almost certainly help you feel a lot better and help you recover your sense of equanimity.

Please post again to let us know how you're doing finding a psychiatrist.

[Jaquta]

I think that it could be bipolar.  You could try looking up the dsm-iv for bipolar disorder.

I would also suggest you arrange an urgent appointment to see your doctor and discuss your symptoms with them.  A psychiatric assessment would be the best approach.