I am seeking a response, but got a message or odd saying back so not sure if i did something wrong. Sort of lost in SF is how I feel, and any second thoughts provided or directions to take further I would be happy for and to do.
I have seven brain lesions, I have microscopic coll lym colitis, Off work as this in flare or out now, is on, all the time, and I am homebound many days, and get up every day at 2:30 to make or hope to make my two doctor appointments a week, and one other usually one time a month. I have lost the ability to function with any energy, despite 400 mg of provigil, and 22 other RX drugs, which are watched very closely with my two doctors in agreement. Some are daily - some are as needed, some are round the clock. Most I have been on with the exception of Fentenaly for years.
I really hurt, so much so people move for me, offer me charis, I am awkward looking as my head hangs, and hurts intensly, which is likely why my arms and hands have no feeling and at times, I need a toradol shot, 2 a week is allowed, and not planned, I do use them, with protonix, lost bladder sensation of pain, burn, or urge, and ultram, gave me constipation so I had leaky unknown stool, thus stopped, and I realize I have no sense of bowel sensation and I am very scared about my furture functions. I do not want to live like this, it is too much pain, and the fundtions on the bladder, mostly bowel are beyond embarrassement, and worse, my company sent me out the door after attempting to fire me, but could not, as I was physicaly sick and seeking the Company;s help for my conditions, as my boss terrorized me for about 3-5 months, actually it was about 3-5 people only, but I to this day, two years later can not call the company and I am on a medical leave. I am in full blown pain mentally and physically, andmy life was taken from me, as my friends were for the most part work, and they never call,I am not sure if theyt were told not to, the managerssety tolld me she was asked to watch me and try and catch me doing illegal acts, they were hoping I would lie about my time, but converesly I worked wsy too many hours trying to please plus weekends and we are not paid as management folks at the company I worked at. Any way, if there is a chance you can respond that would be swell, if it tooo much, then that is okay, just say, too much for me or us to look into on the web, we are not able to dedicate time, and I will understand. I have multi level disc degneration, I have been in sever pain for over 1.5 years, and I have migrains, and sleep trouble and was awarded the diganosis of Fibro as well. I have not been awarded the MS diagnosi, as the t2 are scattered and the fluid clear, however, I am homebound, numb arms, legs, severe pain relieved one time a week with injections in head or legs of simple lidocaine, and have lost bladder function and if I take tramadol, I can not feel my colon, which prodcues 10-30 bowel movements on a good day, yet I fear daily SS will be taken away, while my work told me I am far too sick, and on 22 different med, they just added a narcotic, Fentenaly, as it bypasses gastro, so my gut can go about its ugly daily vigil.
For the most part I am home bound, as I am very much in pain, get so fatigued and my bowels act up with out warning just about daily, home is okay, I have three toilets outside, it is not, thus I pad my clothes. I have had bad gut all my life, formally diagnosed in 98 and even unflared can not stop my gug from producing water or bowel all day long. Standing or walking icreases the sensation.
My eyes are now very blurry.
Though my Nuero test show reaction, I have no ability to carry things and wake up very shaky and off balance.
I do not believe that all this is not MS, as I read the symptions, I have all except for the eye thing.
I lost 25 lbs and 1.5 inches in one year, no one is concered. I am however called malnoruished and I eat and I eat enough and tested I absorb.
I am scared I will lose SS as on outside, my large frome dressed, you can not tell, but my face, I must inject fat as I look like a paitent with Aids, so have the fat injections often used by aid patients to try and keep my hope and appearance up.
My bladder does not know it is infected. I had obout 12 infections in 2005 and after testing we found the cause to be I can flow, I can not empty and I feel no burn, no hurt, I know when bladder stinks real bad.
My migrainse are severe, but I do get shots weekly topical non narcotic, and I get botox, as my face and whoe body actully hurt I think from disc degen and MS.
Scared of drug the other 22 I am on do not scare me, as they are not addictive, they are preventative and symptoms helpers without dope. I take toradol shots 2 times a week now save them for the break throguh pain, which seems worse, now that I have a life, but not relief.
I did have blindness in my 20's and it came on with severe tremor. the Blindness levf, the tremors never left. I have them every day and night.
My pain at times is odd, the sheets hurt my legs, my body is in utter pain, so I just get up, as I can ot bear the pain,and I only have for the most part motrin, bad as I have colits and it is active with or without a positieve colonscopy. Just worse when positive. I sleep in bathroom then as I go all day, and it is watery so not chance to run. I have a puck bucket - for years, no goastro upper, jjust chronic dizzy or nausea. Amy combined thoughts on this.
I went for a second opinion, and the doctor wrote my gastro, I was mortified, and was glad she did not write my nuero, as he does the best he can with what he has to work with, and he really does care, a whole lot about how terrible I feel, and worried I will soon fall and break.
I have osteropina and am not able to see any longer so I will end with this. I have the reposts, but wonpt send as it is public
SO I have lots going on, and I think I have MS, and in Canada, fluid is not the diagnostic tool, where it is here. How can that be.