Maybe zoloft. I think you should do it because your OCD has been going on too long and you need to remember what it feels like to feel normal again. The medication will help you with this and of course continue the CBT because medication alone, while it does a great job, sometimes there is break through and you need your CBT and things will be good again.
And yes she is going to do cbt
They would like to start putting me on a medication that starts with a z but I forget the exact name
Oh good. I'm glad to see that you are seeing a psychiatrist. Are they putting you on medication? Usually psychiatrists don't do talk therapy or teach CBT.
But is that normal or hocd?
I have started going to a psychiatrist.
You have been on here before with the same problem. What have you changed since then? You are still testing and I'm sure I told you that that was bad.
I would like to add that if I do have hocd I believe that it has made me reanalyze every moment I have ever been at a guy friend's house and made me believe I have done gay acts while I was there. And they would be situations in which no one would consider them gay otherwise. Like this one time I was at a friends house and he had to go shower and at the time I thought nothing of it. But now my mind is telling me that I liked the thought that he had to shower and that I wanted to shower with him, when at the time I thought nothing of it and wouldn't have wanted to shower with him. Basically my head has told me I've acted gay in situations when I have not acted gay. And this whole man crush thing is scaring me because as I said when I was seeing Spider-man at the theaters I tested myself to see if I was aroused by him and I wasn't. But now my head is killing me with anxiety and making me believe I am aroused by him. When in all reality I think I just want to be like him or look like him or something. Is this gay?