Hit and run ocd

[kma35han]

Hello everyone,

I'm writing because I have a severe form of OCD called hit-and-run OCD. I've been fighting this for a few years-sometimes successfully, this time, not.

A year or so ago I read something in the newspaper about two girls at a local university who got hit by a car and had non-life threatening injuries. The car mentioned in the paper was similar to mine. But the thing is, I had no damage to my car. There were no dents. There was no blood spatter on my car. I'd been driving in that area around that time.

At the time I didn't worry much about it. But for some reason, it flared up about a few days ago. I began thinking, what if I was driving slowly but hit them? Wouldn't there be some impact to my car? Wouldn't the police have found me if I did something? Thoughts of people walking into my car, landing on my windshield and walking into my car by the side of it while driving have hit me. I know these thoughts are irrational but I'm really having huge anxiety. I think what triggered this all was my turning around in my car to check several times last week when the weather was bad.

I have also been asking myself if I prayed that God would free me from this for a year if I did this and have had thoughts that I did. That sounds like magical thinking to me.

My anxiety is really wearing me down, as is my OCD. Has any of this happened to anyone else?

[IhateOCD]

My OCD got bad in this area to the point of hit and run type. I feel like the only way to get rid of it would be to get reassurance from God and have him heal me right away. I had my pastor pray for me to heal me but God never healed me. I can't just turn away from him because he never healed me. I believe in him. He seems to be allowing me to have this heavy load on me. Anyways, so this OCD bothers me when I see something in the street or especially when a pedestrian is in the street and I drive past it. Well it tells me I ran over it. Man do I hate this OCD. I have suicidal thoughts at times to. The easiest way to die would be to starve myself and not eat anything for the rest of my life.  I tried by being mean to my OCD but it never stops harassing me.

[niktick]

ya even i have a similar problem...sometimes i get up and the moment i sit in my car i feel today is the day i am going to hit someone. I can imagine crushing a cyclist or hitting someone who lands on my wind shield. Its really creepy.Then I keep imagining how I would turn myself in or try to outrun the cops.I have played it over and over in my head for a year now. But I never thought of it as an ocd...maybe it is something to worry about

[distressed1987]

hello I suffer with this condition now.and have for about 6 years.it has recently taken over my life.still worrying and building doubt about past situations where I worry that when I stopped to look back after hearing a ''suspicsious'' noise,that I may not have seen the victim.i frequently search google for reports on unsolved hit and runs in areas I may have been.i even pray to god for signs that I have hit someone and have received possible coincidental signs that I cannot be sure is a sign from god.this all probably sounds ridiculous to most but its a huge part of my daily ritual.i cant focus at work.i cant laugh or be happy knowing that in the past this may have happened.i suffer a great deal knowing that I may never know whether or not I have hit someone or worse killed someone while driving.I like to hope that even if I wasn't paying 100% attention to the road that I would certainly hear the thud of a body slamming into my car and that it would be distinctly different the noise of hitting uneven pavement or a pothole or a construction area that is not yet finished.i desperately need help.i don't know how much longer I can take this without going completely insane

[57Carol]

Of course it has happened to thousands of other people with OCD. Now will you get some help for it, as untreated OCD generally always gets worse.


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