I think I'm suffering from HOCD and it can't stop

[Yidoo]

I'm 17 years old and never had a proper girl friend as when I'm worsen girls I get nervous and aren't myself this is due to being a little over weight and not confident in my body. One day I woke up around a month ago and started question,y sexuality and I know for a fact I'm not gay but my brain doesn't want me to think straight. When I see men I check to see if I have any sort of movement in my erectile area which I don't. But it's doing my head in I know I'm not gay but my brain keeps question it. How do I get it to stop? When I walk I think to my self am I walking like a geeza? Or do I look gay  when walking? It drivers me nuts! I've read a lot of people's post who have the same sort of symptoms as me but then my brain still questions it why does it feel so real? I'm a proud geeza and it starting to get to me now it feels like I've got a burden on my shoulders. A couple years before this I used to think my parents was gonna die in their sleep so I had to check if they was breathing every night otherwise I couldn't sleep. I got rid of this and now I've got this hocd symptoms. Even now my brains questioning myself writing this! It feels so real I have to reassure myself every day for more then 4 hours that I'm not gay. Even in the morning first think I think of is I'm not gay! Please someone help.

[brokenmess]

As far as I know, and perhaps I’m not one to say, but I do know HOCD is stemmed from an intense fear of thinking you may be gay. Keep in mind, HOCD is terrifying enough to trick you into thinking you enjoy these thoughts.

See a psychiatrist if you can, if not, don’t ignore the thoughts and etc. You need to learn to be peaceful with these thoughts. Indirectly agree with them if you have the heart to do it.

This is all sourced from what other people say, hope this helped.