So I had my first panic attack about 3 months ago, and since then I've been put on 25mg of fluoxetine, 25mg of amitriptylin to sleep, and 1/2-1 mg of lorazepam as needed. I've also been going to a psychologist on a weekly basis, which has really helped a lot. Compared to where I was 3 months ago, it's like I'm almost my old self...the pre-panic attack me.....and I have been doing everything I use to do without many problems.
Except lately I have been having thoughts of harming myself, or harming those around me. I get scared about becoming schizophrenic, or that I'm bipolar, especially since both of those things affect some members of my extended family. I would never, EVER hurt anyone, I'm not like that, but the thoughts make me so scared because they come out of nowhere. It's like 2 parts of my brain are fighting with each other, the part that is thinking about hurting others or myself, and the part that is telling that part to shut up! It's worse in the early morning when I'm first waking up, but I have had the thoughts randomly throughout the day as well.
Is this a symptom of anxiety, or maybe something like OCD? It's really, really scaring me and I don't know how to make it stop. All of this anxiety has made me not trust myself or my thoughts anymore and it's really depressing.