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My OCD story
Hi
here is my story,
A three months ago I was in a business trip to uk and I was having shoulder pain and my friends suggested a massage in the hotel we were living, then I called the masseur to the room, she did the massage and then she asked for more money and she offered me some sexual pleasure , then I became very anxious as I haven't been before to a prostitute , so I refused the offer and I started freaking out about this incident ;then I decided to get tested after 4 weeks, in a two weeks after the incident (17th day), I started to worry a lot, and I remembered a year ago when I helped a man in an accident when he was bleeding heavily , then I started having panic attacks then I went for a test at that same day .
Since that day I became kind of worrying a lot about HIV infection.
At 28 days from the massage incident I did the combo test and I said it's over.
Two days later , I went to the barber and during shaving he nicked my neck (as always I get because of my hear in opposite direction in some areas) then I started freaking out about this incident, then I decided to do HIV test after three week, and I was very worried about it,
in the day of the test, I was out of concentration and when I left the lab, I started to freak out again about the syringe and I called them and asked about it and they said it was new and we never re-use the syringes(to be honest, I remember there were a big box full of brand new syringes in the clinic near the chair where I sat for blood withdrawal)
Then a gain decided to re-test after tree weeks from that incident<<<<<also I decided to see a doctor for which told me that I had an OCD and Hypochondriasis, and she prescribed (((LUSTRAL(sertraline) 50mg two tablet a day , INDERAL 40 mg two tablets a day and Miratzapine 15 once a day 2 hours before bed.
Now I can feel better in the panic attacks but I still freak out a lot,
last week I decided to do the test after the syringe incident, in the day of the test I used a toilet at work and then I realized that one co-worker who is famous of multiple sexual relations used the toilet b-4 me , then I decided to postpone the test for three weeks a gain to cover this incident!!!
Just a week later ,
I was at the barber shop for a hair cut, then accidently he did a small cut by the scissors behind my ear where little blood and stopped, and again freaking out again
Now I am afraid that I will continuo like this and I am seeking some help about this
-are the incidents mentioned above could cause the HIV infection?
-am I suffering from OCD and Hypochondriasis? And can get red of it?
-are these medication suitable to my case?
-does any one face the same thing so he/she can tell me what did he/she do to overcome this?
here is my story,
A three months ago I was in a business trip to uk and I was having shoulder pain and my friends suggested a massage in the hotel we were living, then I called the masseur to the room, she did the massage and then she asked for more money and she offered me some sexual pleasure , then I became very anxious as I haven't been before to a prostitute , so I refused the offer and I started freaking out about this incident ;then I decided to get tested after 4 weeks, in a two weeks after the incident (17th day), I started to worry a lot, and I remembered a year ago when I helped a man in an accident when he was bleeding heavily , then I started having panic attacks then I went for a test at that same day .
Since that day I became kind of worrying a lot about HIV infection.
At 28 days from the massage incident I did the combo test and I said it's over.
Two days later , I went to the barber and during shaving he nicked my neck (as always I get because of my hear in opposite direction in some areas) then I started freaking out about this incident, then I decided to do HIV test after three week, and I was very worried about it,
in the day of the test, I was out of concentration and when I left the lab, I started to freak out again about the syringe and I called them and asked about it and they said it was new and we never re-use the syringes(to be honest, I remember there were a big box full of brand new syringes in the clinic near the chair where I sat for blood withdrawal)
Then a gain decided to re-test after tree weeks from that incident<<<<<also I decided to see a doctor for which told me that I had an OCD and Hypochondriasis, and she prescribed (((LUSTRAL(sertraline) 50mg two tablet a day , INDERAL 40 mg two tablets a day and Miratzapine 15 once a day 2 hours before bed.
Now I can feel better in the panic attacks but I still freak out a lot,
last week I decided to do the test after the syringe incident, in the day of the test I used a toilet at work and then I realized that one co-worker who is famous of multiple sexual relations used the toilet b-4 me , then I decided to postpone the test for three weeks a gain to cover this incident!!!
Just a week later ,
I was at the barber shop for a hair cut, then accidently he did a small cut by the scissors behind my ear where little blood and stopped, and again freaking out again
Now I am afraid that I will continuo like this and I am seeking some help about this
-are the incidents mentioned above could cause the HIV infection?
-am I suffering from OCD and Hypochondriasis? And can get red of it?
-are these medication suitable to my case?
-does any one face the same thing so he/she can tell me what did he/she do to overcome this?
Hi tretre
I have been away in business, and also tying to be busy
Are you still using the lutsteral?
I have been away in business, and also tying to be busy
Are you still using the lutsteral?
I'm not a medical professional, but it does sound like you have OCD. My OCD is centered around these same types of fears. These situations occur to most people and they never give it a second thought, but people like us, it worries us until it drives us mad. Please feel confident that you were never at risk for HIV. The medication you are on may need to be increased. I was taking 300mg Zoloft before I became pregnant which helped a lot with the OCD thoughts. Talk to a psychiatrist and get their professional opinion. By the way, just because you suffer from OCD, doesn't qualify you as a hypochondriac. I think that label is really off if your only fear is HIV. I fear HIV and other blood born pathogens and currently toxoplasmosis because I am pregnant but I never feel like I have symptoms, which is what most hypochondriacs do. Either way, if you need to talk, just let me know because I know what you are going through and it isn't fun.
I'll be blunt and get straight to the point..
A resounding no - none of the above are modes of HIV transmission and never will be. None of the incidents put you at any kind of risk.
I'm no doctor (speaking from own experience) but you appear to have some form of anxiety disorder with a small element of OCD. See you GP for an appropriate diagnosis/referral.
Not sure about the meds as I have no knowledge in this field.
I face the same thing, albeit in a different manner where therapy and medication is the only answer. You need to educate yourself on the routes of transmission and then stop there. Immediately. Do not obsess and read the internet over and over. HIV is not transmitted through inanimate objects such as scissors, it cannot survive when exposed to environmental temperatures etc. Actual unptotected sex and intravenous drug use are the only methods of transmission you should be concerned about.
A resounding no - none of the above are modes of HIV transmission and never will be. None of the incidents put you at any kind of risk.
I'm no doctor (speaking from own experience) but you appear to have some form of anxiety disorder with a small element of OCD. See you GP for an appropriate diagnosis/referral.
Not sure about the meds as I have no knowledge in this field.
I face the same thing, albeit in a different manner where therapy and medication is the only answer. You need to educate yourself on the routes of transmission and then stop there. Immediately. Do not obsess and read the internet over and over. HIV is not transmitted through inanimate objects such as scissors, it cannot survive when exposed to environmental temperatures etc. Actual unptotected sex and intravenous drug use are the only methods of transmission you should be concerned about.
nothing you listed is an HIV risk or concern.I ve and am experiencing some of the same things you are feeling now.Let me guess it feels like a broke record in your head
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