Hi,
I really hope someone can reassure me here. 2 years ago I made a big mistake and decided to smoke a waterpipe. I didn't know what the content was. It turned out this pipe contained methamphetamine. I gave in to group pressure but never inhaled the stuff (apart from tiny bits sometimes). I hardly felt anything from it (apart from mild euphoria). However just before I was leaving for home (I was on holiday), some of the smoke entered my lungs (I have no idea how much because I didn't know anything about the dose).
I didn't feel anything for a while but after 30 min or so I got stomach cramps and felt pretty ill for 2-3 hours. I also had dilated pupils. I didn't faint, didn't have convulsions. but I'm afraid it could've been an overdose. When the stomach cramps were gone I felt OK again and even went to work that evening. 2 years on I don't have any signs of brain damage, but I often have feelings of depression (I also had those before the incident though because I have asperger's which makes life difficult sometimes).
I didn't think about this till I read an article on the internet about the dangers of methamphetamine some months ago. I dont have any of the damage signs (my memory seems ok and don't have any motor skill problems), but one part of the article said dopamine receptors can get damaged so I became worried about the possibility of that happening. There are still good moments in my life: I have a GF, don't have any problem with orgasm, I also feel happy sometimes, but the obsessive thoughts about the damage keep coming back and it's extremely annoying. I have history of OCD, so that's probably why I get obsessed about it.
If my dopamine function would be damaged, would it be very obvious?
Is there any way to get rid of my anxiety? Is there a test to prove there is nothing wrong with my dopamine receptors? I would just prefer someone on here could reassure me so I can stop worrying about it and start living again. The obsessions can take up many hours of the day (which is typical for OCD). I just want to enjoy life again!
Hope someone can help.
(I never took that drug again and never intend to either. I have never been addicted. I'm fundamentally anti drugs so that's why I'm obsessed by this)