PLEASE HELP ME! I REALLY NEED YOUR HELP RIGHT NOW

[Imstress]

I have repetitive blasphemous thoughts its like i talking with my self in my head,the first sentence is blasphemy after that asking forgiveness and it happen again and again.but sometime when i dont know that i have OCD,I repeat my thoughts purposefully although i had no intent to mocking him,everytime i hiccup i always repeat my thoughts pureposefully although i had no intent to mocking him.because i think if i repeat it my hiccup is gone.MY QUESTION IS:I repeat my thought purposefully when i hiccup it is my compulsion or not?but now i never repeat it purposefully again when i know thats i have OCD. PLEASE ANSWER MY QUESTION, IT IS COMPULSION OR I'M EVIL?

[JGF25]

I got your PM....Everything Sparky said is correct.  We cannot diagnose you on the forum.  Each one of us has some sort of thought process that is off.  I don't believe you mentioned your age.  Are you old enough to see a psychologist/psychiatrist by yourself or are you young where you need to discuss with your parents?  

[sparky43]

We aren't medical professionals here, so we really can't diagnose you, especially over the internet.   You may have OCD, but your symptoms are kind of all over the place so I think your best plan of action at this time is to go see a psychiatrist or psychologist.   They can listen to your symptoms, give you a diagnosis and put you on a treatment plan.

[Imstress]

I really sure that i have ocd when i read a symptoms in internet i have tourette syndroms too like repeated scream without reason.my OCD is:repetitive thoughts,i want my room is perfect,and i must touch my sister 6 times if just 3 or 4 times something bad will happen to her,repeating checking althought i already now it,repeating asking a question although i already now the answer.BUT MY QUESTION IS:everytime i hiccup i always repeat my thoughts pureposefully although i had no intent to mocking him.because i think if i repeat it my hiccup is gone it is part of my OCD or not? Please answer it.

[JGF25]

Okay, so you have been formally diagnosed with OCD?  And even if you weren't, you are not evil.  OCD takes the form of things that scare us, make us fearful and so we tend to pick things that are off the charts kinda strange.  Your beliefs are such that, this blasphemy will damn you in some way.  The truth is it will not.  What you have to learn is how to stop these thoughts when they start.  You are waging a war against your own mind and you are losing.  You need to learn to take the fear away from the thought.  Once you do that, once you let it just wash over you with a "WHATEVER" thought, they will go away.  Can you see a psychologist to learn cognitive behavioral therapy?