My anxiety is worse than it has ever been. I have finally given in and have begun taking Prozac. I am on day 3. I have also started running. I hope these two things help me finally defeat my ocd.
It seems my ocd likes to ruin everything though. I was hopeful about prozac and beginning a running routine because I thought maybe I can finally overcome my worries. But then I started worrying about side effects of prozac. It brought back my sleepwalking worries...what if I sleepwalk and do something horrible sleep.
I have also noticed my legs jerking and twitching. I read information online that said twitches that you can see on the skin are almost always normal, where as twitches you can not see are almost always harmful. I am now so worried about having MS, ALS or Parkinson's. (I am an 18 year old female) My legs feel so strange to me now, they are jerking more now than ever.
My family has begun to really lose their patience with me. I always worried about something, as soon as a worry goes away a new comes in. I went through a big hepatitis c scare and have been so worried about. Now I am worried about MS, ALS or Parkinson's. I feel so hopeless.
I have seen many therapists and I am currently seeing two. I have been a worrier my whole life, it has been so hard lately :(
I love life and I want to truly live. I don't think my worrying lets me do this.
When I'm not worried about HIV, I'm worried about pregnancy, or cancer or my father getting sick or my social life or what other's think of me, rabies, etc.
I'm driving myself insane.
The way I think is this: Even if I stop worrying, these bad things could still happen. And in my mind, they probably will.