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I'm a young adult male who is currently having anxiety over being transgender. This obsession started a little while back but it's had it's breaks. But those breaks were filled with anxiety over other themes. I do have compulsions, I don't feel the need to explain them here. The past few weeks my obsession got worse. "What if..." questions flood my brain when I spike, for example... "What if I'm subconsciously transgender." "What if I've been suppressing my identity this whole time." "What if this whole idea of having OCD is a way to deny my real identity." I could go on and on... What has really got me worried lately is this dream I had of being a female the same night I spiked, which brings on a new set of "What if..." questions. "What if this dream was a subconscious desire." You could probably go off from there. The dream wasn't every clear, it was also a collection of other things like, video games I've played recently people and people I've recently came in contact with. Which brings me to a conclusion that maybe my mind was just processing information. And it's not so much the idea of being transgender it's fear of losing myself, because I feel male and that's who I am regardless of what body I'm in. If I was physically born female I would identify as a transman. I don't even know why I'm typing this because I know I'm not transgender... Just like when I knew I didn't have schizophrenia, when I knew I didn't have testicular cancer, or when I knew I wasn't going to be possessed by super natural beings. I'm don't even know why I'm typing this, I suppose I'm just seeking for comfort with people in this community.
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you have ocd which is just changing its themes , you will have to look for professional help, because ocd won't get better on its own, reassurance seeking is a type of compulsion done by ocd sufferers to solve the doubt they are having in their mind,but due to ocd your mind will find a loophole to create another doubt, so its better you look for psychologist/psychiatrist.
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